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I finally took H downtown so she could browse for a birthday present to buy with the money grandma and grandpa sent for that reason. We had a good time being together just the two of us. On the way home she kept touching her cheeks next to her mouth. Her smile muscles were sore from overuse.
Tomorrow I can call the doctor to get the consensus on Ya's test results. Generally if there is bad news, one hears it quickly. So I think it will be okay.
The boys were wild and noisy, but there was no crying. It's a relief when they play well together.
Ri asked me to go with her to a course she is taking for people with hearing problems. Tomorrow she is supposed to bring a family member or friend. I was surprised, and still am. It turned out the meeting is in the evening, and I told her that because of the children I don't go out in the evening. I'm wrestling with conflicting thoughts and feelings. I'm afraid I've hurt her feelings, so I think maybe I should arrange to go somehow. But still it seems strange that she has asked me. She generally gives the impression of being busy and in contact with many people. This makes me realize that maybe she is actually very isolated and finds comfort in my understanding and acceptance. I suggested some people she has mentioned as possibilities instead of me. She says she doesn't want to involve them in her problems. I can understand that in some instances, like a work situation. But it seems sad that her relations with family and friends can't be based on who she is as a whole. It seems very lonely. But I think this is something most people do to a certain extent, and suffer as a result.
My sister V and I keep missing each other on IM. She is paranoid about opening e-mails. I sent her information about a good free firewall, but she probably hasn't opened that e-mail either. I guess I am lucky to have helpful people in my environment who share their expertise in computers when I'm desperate.
My ex's mom had a heart attack. Because she is so weak since she broke her hip, they can't operate on her.
I have so many things I need to do that I just do not do. Most of them concerning health. It is such a run-around arranging for all the different tests and procedures in different places, and the appropriate releases for each one. It is too much. It's silly that sick people or people who are already burdened with taking care of sick family members are saddled with such a burdensome health system.
Tomorrow I can call the doctor to get the consensus on Ya's test results. Generally if there is bad news, one hears it quickly. So I think it will be okay.
The boys were wild and noisy, but there was no crying. It's a relief when they play well together.
Ri asked me to go with her to a course she is taking for people with hearing problems. Tomorrow she is supposed to bring a family member or friend. I was surprised, and still am. It turned out the meeting is in the evening, and I told her that because of the children I don't go out in the evening. I'm wrestling with conflicting thoughts and feelings. I'm afraid I've hurt her feelings, so I think maybe I should arrange to go somehow. But still it seems strange that she has asked me. She generally gives the impression of being busy and in contact with many people. This makes me realize that maybe she is actually very isolated and finds comfort in my understanding and acceptance. I suggested some people she has mentioned as possibilities instead of me. She says she doesn't want to involve them in her problems. I can understand that in some instances, like a work situation. But it seems sad that her relations with family and friends can't be based on who she is as a whole. It seems very lonely. But I think this is something most people do to a certain extent, and suffer as a result.
My sister V and I keep missing each other on IM. She is paranoid about opening e-mails. I sent her information about a good free firewall, but she probably hasn't opened that e-mail either. I guess I am lucky to have helpful people in my environment who share their expertise in computers when I'm desperate.
My ex's mom had a heart attack. Because she is so weak since she broke her hip, they can't operate on her.
I have so many things I need to do that I just do not do. Most of them concerning health. It is such a run-around arranging for all the different tests and procedures in different places, and the appropriate releases for each one. It is too much. It's silly that sick people or people who are already burdened with taking care of sick family members are saddled with such a burdensome health system.