fodder for the animals

[glasschild]

I never really thought Panda Express leftovers could taste even remotely okay. I guess it just takes the right kind of preperation. Work is work. School starts soon. Money's kinda tight and my teeth want all the money I have and more. Mom's death is hitting me differently than before. Like Jenica mentioned, I also find myself missing her. She was the only one I had to talk to about certain things. She always helped me get out of stillness. When I felt like I was being stupid with my life, or myself, she would talk me through it. It always helped. It's also very odd to have such a large part of what is essentially you, like the foundation of you, go away. I find myself feeling off balance. Definitely confused... but at the moment, for the most part, on the right track. I know I should try therapy... because they give you perspective.

Mom gave me such perspective.

But I have reservations. Who knows.. I will probably try it eventually. I am hoping that school will help.