Please To Be Ignoring The Girl Behind the Curtain!
So I'm just working on my Creative Writing assignment, feeling sorry for myself.
I haven't written creatively in so long! Not that I haven't tried, but it hasn't been at the front of my mind in a long while. Maybe things will change. Or maybe I'll discover that I'm only a literary genius in my mind and that all my dreams and delusions are for naught.
It is encouraging to think that I haven't totally neglected writing. Every teacher and writer has told me to just write, whether its a fictional masterpiece or otherwise. I think my blogs and journals can be considered otherwise. As random and silly as I often sound, very little is typed that I didn't think hard on.
Yes, I'm perfectly aware of how I sometimes seem.
That's the point really.
I'm not going to be all emo and say that my blog is a way to express myself. Gawd, I hate that phrase. If I want to express myself, I'll wear nail polish.
The fact is that my blog, as informational (and trivial) as it is, has nothing on my mind and soul. I'm always conscious of the fact that other people can read my words and therefore, I filter what I say. I'm naturally introverted, afterall, and a blog isn't going to make me bare all and sundry, is it? Of course, it is good for dealing with angst build up. And I don't care if people know when I'm in a dark mood. In fact, it's probably better for the world at large to know when my own personal rain cloud comes for a visit. I call him Lucius McRains-a-lot.
Now that I think about it, this is just one more mask...
O_o That was a little emo there! But very true. How does anyone know that when I write such frivolous shite, that I'm not in fact crying my eyes out over a pint of ice cream? Or listening to goth/emo metal and doing myself some bodily harm?
Huh? Huh?!
You don't know, do you?
Ah, there's the rub.
Of course, I'm a bit lactose intolerant and I bitch over paper cuts for hours so none of that is probable. ^_^
Knowing my friends, I might have worried some of you. To be perfectly honest, I rather enjoyed messing with your minds!
I'm a little mean sometimes. Did you know?
I wonder what brought this on. *shrug*
I have made the loveliest playlist for getting inspired! It's full of 30 Seconds to Mars, Nine Inch Nails, Frou Frou, and a bunch of soundtrack selections. *le sigh* If music was food, I would have died of heart failure long ago. And if it were a person...the same thing would happen. Guess how. *wink*
Hee! I am so tripolar!!!! ^_^ 0_0;; -_-
*smooch*