THIS IS AN INSECURITIES BLOG.
I just spent 20 minutes looking through the 'thinspiration' tumblr of a girl with an eating disorder. It was the scariest, saddest thing I've ever read, but unfortunately, after reading it for awhile, some of it actually seemed like a viable option for an overweight girl like me. Maybe I was getting too locked into her mindset, that she was never good enough for someone else.
I know it's a suicidal mindset, I know that it's not losing weight in a healthy way, I know its an addiction, but it really would just be nice to not feel so bad about myself for once.
I just wish I could tell those girls how pretty they already are, to stop hurting themselves to be skinny, but the general punchline to that entire idea is, 'look at it this way, you could look like me.'
I've learned to accept my body, but I know I'm out of shape, I'm vitamin deficient. I need a plan- healthier food, exercise, all that good stuff.
I'm always gonna have a big ass, that's just the way it's shaped, but I could have a healthy body, and happy organs!
I actually like myself quite a lot, so no need to worry about me going on some sort of purging bender.
Because somethings, like a chocolate croissant in the morning, are just too important for a happy life.
I know it's a suicidal mindset, I know that it's not losing weight in a healthy way, I know its an addiction, but it really would just be nice to not feel so bad about myself for once.
I just wish I could tell those girls how pretty they already are, to stop hurting themselves to be skinny, but the general punchline to that entire idea is, 'look at it this way, you could look like me.'
I've learned to accept my body, but I know I'm out of shape, I'm vitamin deficient. I need a plan- healthier food, exercise, all that good stuff.
I'm always gonna have a big ass, that's just the way it's shaped, but I could have a healthy body, and happy organs!
I actually like myself quite a lot, so no need to worry about me going on some sort of purging bender.
Because somethings, like a chocolate croissant in the morning, are just too important for a happy life.