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i'm stuck
i'm sinking
i read an old friend's life through her livejournal and i'm just overrun with nosttalgia that isn't mine....and the sadness hits...
i just don't want to be here anymore. i miss hugs from meghan...and talks with her....
i miss that comfort...i feel so sad right now...and its four-thirty AM and i don't want to sleep...
i wish this would stop...one way or another...i need companionship but my life isn't in the right place for it...
i just don't know anymore...
i'm just sad, i guess...i feel like i lived all of my "fun" years wrong...like i just "did it wrong"
please make it all stop....just please...
i really hope, but know i probably won't get it, for a random phone call from a certain someone...
most of all...i miss the feeling i had back on meghan's birthday when we went to the tarot card reader, i gave her a fork for a present, and she fucking loved it. and i miss the post reading denny's trip where chad drew an underwater house car wearing pants....i just...miss those feelings so much right now.
i'm sinking
i read an old friend's life through her livejournal and i'm just overrun with nosttalgia that isn't mine....and the sadness hits...
i just don't want to be here anymore. i miss hugs from meghan...and talks with her....
i miss that comfort...i feel so sad right now...and its four-thirty AM and i don't want to sleep...
i wish this would stop...one way or another...i need companionship but my life isn't in the right place for it...
i just don't know anymore...
i'm just sad, i guess...i feel like i lived all of my "fun" years wrong...like i just "did it wrong"
please make it all stop....just please...
i really hope, but know i probably won't get it, for a random phone call from a certain someone...
most of all...i miss the feeling i had back on meghan's birthday when we went to the tarot card reader, i gave her a fork for a present, and she fucking loved it. and i miss the post reading denny's trip where chad drew an underwater house car wearing pants....i just...miss those feelings so much right now.