Kitty Part 30/32
Title: Kitty
Author: StormyBear30
Author Website: http://archiveofourown.org/users/StormyBear30
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: Slight R
Summary: Kris Allen has always been petrified to come out to any of the people in his life but then he meets Adam Lambert. Kris falls hard and fast for the openly gay man and finds that as much as he cares for Adam he’s not sure if he really can ever come out of the closet for him.
Author’s Note: All mistakes are mine and this is un-beta’d.
Disclaimer: I don’t know them. I have no idea of their sexual orientation. These are just stories that the muses in my head forced me to write.
Feedback: I live and breathe for it.
“It’s ok Miss Lemon” Mr. Standish said but I noticed that he shoved the picture of him and his former lover back into his desk. “What is the meaning of this Mr. Bell?” He questioned Brad and I couldn’t tell if he was annoyed or not.
“I’m here to make sure that you don’t fire Kris because of the fact that he is gay” Brad burst out, striding into the room as if he owned it. “Sure he was caught doing god knows what with Adam in the bathroom but you wouldn’t have even known about it if that douche bag Frank hadn’t dragged you in there” He continued to rant as I closed my eyes and prayed that the floor would just swallow him and the rest of them up so I could find out my fate in private. “Kris is the most hard working executive that you have and he really cares for the staff and for this company and if you fire him just because he is gay well…well…you’re going to have to fire me too and trust me I won’t go down without a fight” I wanted to hug him and smack Brad all at the same time as I buried my head in my hands and moaned quietly.
“You’re going to have to fire me too” I heard Matt say next as he stepped forward.
“And me too” Cale chimed in next, moving next to his lover as he took his hand.
“You fire my Brother over this and I’m going to make sure to get every equal rights organization involved” My Brother threatened as he walked over to Brad and took his hand.
“You two have anything you want to add?” My boss asked Tommy and Sutan who stood off of the back of the room looking completely uncomfortable and I had a feeling it wasn’t because of what was going on in that room.
“Just that if you fire Kris then you will be making one hell of a huge mistake” Tommy replied as he stepped away from Sutan. “I won’t threaten you with anything because if you do fire him this company will suffer for it”
I appreciated Tommy’s words but my eyes were locked on Sutan who looked more broken and hurt then he did the night before. “Did you guys talk last night?” I asked him, not caring in the least that my job was in jeopardy because I hated that two of the people I loved were hurting. “Did you?” I directed the question towards Tommy when Sutan just seemed to sink into himself.
“Kris…I think that we have more important things to deal with right now than what’s going on between Sutan and I” Tommy grumbled, looking at Sutan briefly before turning his attention towards the floor.
“Oh my god you’re the one that kissed Frank in the video” We all heard Miss Lemon exclaim as she rushed up to Sutan. “You were so amazing and you couldn’t have done it to a more deserving guy” She went on like a fan meeting their favorite star but her giddiness didn’t last long as Tommy stormed out of the room with a slam of the door.
“Shit…Brad I’m going to fucking kill you” I growled under my breath at Brad because I knew he was the one who had showed her the video and I was sure the rest of the secretarial pool as well. You and I are going to talk about this later” I warned him as I turned my sights back on Sutan. “You guys didn’t talk at all did you?”
“Mr. Allen” I heard Mr. Standish say my name as I recalled what I was there for.
“I’ll go after him” I heard Brad say as he rushed out the door after Tommy.
“Look…I’m sorry about what happened last night but I meant what I said about not apologizing for who I am. I’ve hidden myself in the closet for far too long and because of it I lost the man that I loved. If you want to fire me then fire me and I won’t fight you on it. I’ve been with the company for several years and I’ve always worked hard for you and if that doesn’t amount to anything then I don’t know what else I can say to change your mind”
“These are your friends?” He asked looking at the remaining men standing behind me.
“No…they are my family” I replied with a smile as I turned to look at them before focusing back on the man who was about to decide my fate.
“You are a very lucky man” He replied with a smile that told me he had forgiven my indiscretion and was willing to give me another chance. “Now go on and take care of your friend. I’d like to meet with you bright and early on Monday morning so we can discuss a few more things” I knew what those few things were and despite the fact that I had no idea why he had decided to confide in me yet again I was more than grateful that he had.
“Thank you Mr. Standish and yes I’ll see you Monday morning” I rushed out with a smile as I turned from the desk and found myself enveloped into a group hug. “I can’t believe that you didn’t learn anything from Adam and me” I directed my attention towards Sutan as I took his hand and led him out of the room. “Sex solves nothing” I continued to rant as we all squeezed into the elevator. “Now you and Tommy are going to talk and work this shit out if it is the last thing that I do” I vowed as I jerked him through the doors once we hit the ground floor. “Get in” I said to him as I practically shoved him into the back seat of my car. “You…” I hollered over towards Tommy where he and Brad were arguing in the middle of the parking lot. “Get in this car now” I roared, not giving a shit who heard me. “I said now” I yelled again when he just stood there looking at me as if I had lost my mind.
“You heard the man” Brad cackled as he shoved Tommy towards my car. He didn’t even try to put up a fight as he climbed into the back seat where Sutan was sitting. “Matt and Cale are going to meet us at your place a little later on and Daniel and I are going to stop off and pick up some lunch so we’ll be back in a bit” He winked at me before climbing into the passenger’s seat of what used to be Adam’s car. I closed my eyes and just breathed for a moment as my loneliness for Adam tried to consume me. I refused to allow it to happen as I took one final breath and turned my attention back towards my car.
“I’m really glad that you didn’t lose your job Kris” I heard Sutan say, breaking the silence that had been surrounding us as I drove out of the parking lot.
“Are you two fucking insane?” I cried out, ignoring his words as I looked at them through the rear view mirror. “Have neither of you learned that having sex is not the answer when there are issues that need to be dealt with?” I continued on my roll. “I’ve had to listen to the two of you lecture me time and time again when this was happening between Adam and I and then you go and do the same fucking thing”
“This is completely different from the stupid shit that you and Adam went through” Tommy spoke up in anger.
“No…it’s just different stupid shit” I countered back because I wasn’t going to just sit back and watch what I felt was the most amazing relationship burn to ashes right in front of my eyes. “You two have like the most amazing and perfect relationship I have ever seen”
“It’s far from perfect” Tommy shot back, looking as if he were about to burst into tears. My heart broke as I happened a glance at Sutan and found his staring out the window silently weeping.
“No…you’re right you’ve had some major obstacles that you’ve had to overcome but the point I’m trying to make is that you overcame them. I’ve never told anyone…not even Adam but I was always jealous about your relationship. Yes…you would bicker and fight but you were always able to work through your problems and it always made you seem so much stronger afterwards. You have this amazing home and let’s not forget the beautiful daughter you brought into this world together” Sutan was crying even harder as he leaned his forehead against the glass. “Tommy…please just tell Sutan what you are feeling because I really don’t think he understands how much it affects you” I didn’t think he was going to say anything as he closed his eyes and rubbed at his forehead for what felt like forever.
“It fucking devastates me when you do the shit that you do” He began, his voice low and so full of anger. “Every time that you flirt with another man in front of me it’s like a dagger to my heart because I have no idea why you do it. I love you so much Sutan” He turned to face the man who still had his face hidden in the glass. “I know that we had a rough start and that we’ve been through stuff that should have ended us but we were able to get through it. I used to look at you sometimes and think how the fuck did I get so lucky? How is it that this man is able to look past my bullshit and actually want to be with me and then you would look back at me and I would see how much you truly loved me and then it didn’t matter. All that mattered was doing everything in my power to keep you looking at me like that and it worked for a while and then something changed. I have no idea what it was but then you started flirting with other men and as much as I hated it I ignored it but then you wanted to bring other men back home with us and yes I was kind of into it at the beginning but after a while I didn’t want to do that anymore and then the shit with Bruno hit and you blamed it all on me. I just…I just don’t know what I did to make you not love me as much as you used to” Tommy sobbed as he hid his face in his hands.
Sutan looked as if he had been run over by a semi-truck as he turned to face Tommy, tears flowing even faster down his cheeks. “I’ve been waiting for you to come to your senses and leave me” He spoke softly. “I don’t deserve you…I’ve never disserved you”
“What?” Tommy questioned as he looked over at his lover. “Why would you even think that? Jesus Sutan…I’ve pretty much been in love with you since that first night we went back to your apartment. I mean…I know I freaked out when I found out you were a man but there was something about you even then that I couldn’t forget. It wasn’t hard to fall in love with you after I got over my own stupidity”
“I don’t know why” He sobbed as he turned to face the window yet again.
“I don’t know why either and you know that I’ve never been good with words anyways but I did and I do” He replied as he shifted closer to Sutan and forced him to turn and face him. “Baby…I love you with everything that I am…as cheesy as that sounds” He chuckled with a blush and I couldn’t help but smile as I pulled the car off into a nearby parking lot and continued to watch them through the rearview mirror. “I love you and our life and our baby and I don’t want anything else” He said again as he laid his hand on one side of his face. “No…that’s not true I do want something else” He said as he removed his hands and placed them in his lap. “I want you to stop flirting with other men. If I’m lacking in something then tell me and I will do everything in my power to change it because I want to be your perfect man”
“You are my perfect man…you always have been” I knew they were on their way to a reconciliation and a happy ending when Tommy grabbed the man that he loved and kissed him breathless. I was so happy that they were able to work things out and yet at the same time my heart broke yet again because Adam and I hadn’t been able to have our happy ending.
Life after that just sort of droned on for me but for everyone else it seemed to be flourishing. As expected Tommy and Sutan reconciled and despite how happy I was that they were able to work things out I couldn’t help but feel extremely jealous that they could and Adam and I hadn’t been able to. Matt and Cale decided to move in together and were even talking about getting married and again as happy as I was for them I couldn’t help but be envious. Even my Brother’s relationship was blossoming with talk of him moving to California so he could spend more time with Brad. He had asked before he went back home to Arkansas if I would consider allowing him to live with me since it was too soon to be living with Brad and I jumped at the chance. The idea of having Danny so close was the only thing I felt was going to keep me sane. Even my boss’s life took a dramatic turn when I figured out that the man in the picture he had shown me was none other than the owner of the theater that Adam had worked at. It had taken a lot of persuasion on my part to get my boss to even consider meeting up with him while Brad worked on Red for the same reason. I don’t know what I was expecting when we finally convinced them to meet for drinks with Brad and I along to chaperone but it wasn’t the slap Red landed across Mr. Standish’s face before he pulled him into his arms and kissed him in front of everyone. I expected him to freak out, maybe even run out of the restaurant but instead he pulled Red into his arms and declared that he still loved him despite Brad, myself and the rest of the people at the bar watching them.
“Guess what I got in the mail?” I heard Brad exclaim with a smile nearly four months after Adam had left as he rushed into the restaurant Red, Mr. Standish and myself were having lunch in. It had become a regular thing for us during the work week after that day in his office and it made me feel as if he were now my friend as well as my boss. I felt my heart clench in my throat as he waved a postcard back and forth as he fell into the booth beside me. “Oh shit Kris…I’m sorry” He cried out, slamming the post card face down on the table as he attempted to cover it with his hand. “I didn’t even think about how this would affect you”
“It’s ok” I lied because I knew for a fact that Adam had also sent post cards as well as emails to Sutan and Tommy and Red prior to that. “What did he have to say?” I forced a smile on my face as I took a drink from my glass, finding interest in the table because I knew none of them believed a word I was saying. “I’m not going to say that it doesn’t hurt a little that everyone has received some sort of correspondence but me but then again why would he keep in contact with the dreaded ex” I tried to laugh it off but it only came off flat and sad sounding. “Seriously…how is he doing?”
“He says he’s loving touring overseas and that he’s having a blast and making all sorts of new friends” Brad replied cautiously, stilling hiding the picture on the front of the card. “It’s just a picture…it doesn’t mean anything” He rushed out when I tugged the piece of cardboard from under his hand, my heart clenching even more at what I saw there. It was a picture of two hot looking men dressed up in leather as they practically fucked in the middle of a club. I had no doubt in my mind that the new friends he was referring to were more than just friends. “It also said that he’s been doing some session work and that a few producers have talked to him about maybe working on some demo’s with him”
“He’s a single man so he can do what he wants” I shrugged with tearful smile because I wasn’t anywhere near a good enough actor to even try to pretend that the very idea of him being with another man was nearly killing me. “As long as he’s happy and doing well that is all that matters. I was never sure why he wasn’t picked up by someone in the music industry over here but if this help him advance in his career then all I can do is wish the best for him”
“You never knew?” Red spoke up, staring at me in a way that reminded me of the way he kept staring at me the first time I had met him.
“Adam never told him” Brad replied with a look of guilt on his face as I looked between the two of them.
“Never told me what?” I asked but something told me that I probably didn’t want to know.
“I thought you were the reason that he turned them down” Red went on not answering my question. “I wanted to take you aside so badly that first day I met you and wring your neck because I thought that you knew and were holding him back because of your relationship”
“He was offered a record contract” I surmised, tears weighing heavily in my eyes and my throat once again because despite how unpredictable our relationship had been, Adam had given up his chance at being a star because of it.
“It was only short term deal. They were willing to take a chance on him but not enough to put big money into him until he proved his worth” Red explained. “Kris…I am so sorry” He looked almost on the verge of tears as he reached across the table and took my hand into his. “I just assumed and…”
“Hey…it’s ok” I cut him off with a smile before he could finish his sentence, giving his hand a quick squeeze before pulling it back towards me. “I had no idea and if I had known I would have been there to support him every step of the way” I felt as if the room was starting to close in on me as I jerked my wallet out of my back pocket, tossed whatever money I had in it on the table before shoving my way out of the booth I had been sitting in. “I’m sorry…I have to go” I forced out, running for the door because I felt as if I were about ready to pass out or have a nervous breakdown. I did my best to avoid Brad and my boss the rest of the day but Red wasn’t as easy as found him leaning against my car at the end of the day.
TBC...