Kitty Part 29/32
Title: Kitty
Author: StormyBear30
Author Website: http://archiveofourown.org/users/StormyBear30
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: Slight R
Summary: Kris Allen has always been petrified to come out to any of the people in his life but then he meets Adam Lambert. Kris falls hard and fast for the openly gay man and finds that as much as he cares for Adam he’s not sure if he really can ever come out of the closet for him.
Author’s Note: All mistakes are mine and this is un-beta’d.
Disclaimer: I don’t know them. I have no idea of their sexual orientation. These are just stories that the muses in my head forced me to write.
Feedback: I live and breathe for it.
I wasn’t sure what I was going to find as I exited my room the next morning, but I wasn’t expecting to see my entire group of family and friends sitting around my kitchen table drinking coffee and talking amongst themselves. “Morning Kris…” I heard Brad call out as I entered the kitchen, sitting down in the chair he guided me into as a cup of coffee and a plate of food was placed in front of me.
“What’s going on?” I questioned as I looked at all of them, noticing for the first time that they all looked like they had showered and changed.
“Except for Danny and me everyone went home to shower and change so we could be here for you this morning” Brad explained as he plopped down in my Brother’s lap, the two of them sharing a small kiss before they turned their attention back towards me. “I know you are not going to wear that shirt to your meeting this morning” He went on, nodding towards the faded shirt of Adam’s that I was still wearing
“I most certainly am. If they are going to fire me then I plan to be comfortable while they do it” I replied, taking a sip of my coffee as I tried to avoid the sad looks everyone was giving me because they all knew it was Adam’s shirt.
“Do you really think they are going to fire you?” Matt asked as they all stared at me in wait of my answer.
“I punched one of his executives at our biggest event of the year and then got arrested for it…there is no doubt in my mind” I replied like it was nothing when deep down I was quietly freaking out.
Plus you outed yourself to him and his homophobic supporters” Brad reminded me, crying out in pain when my Brother pinched him on the arm and gave him a warning look. “Sorry…but it’s true” He somewhat amended as the tension around us began to thicken.
“Well I guess I better get this over with and then I can come back home and we can find something to do to keep my mind off of not only losing the love of my life but the job that I loved as well” I tried to joke but it came out sad and pathetic and before I knew what was happening I was wrapped up in a cocoon of friendship and love.
“Let’s go” Brad hollered once he pulled away and was walking for the door.
“Where are you going?” I asked him, watching as everyone else headed for the elevator as well.
“Did you really think that we were going to let you do this alone?” We’re going to work with you and we are going to speak in your defense” Brad said with his hands on his hips as the rest of them turned to face me again.
“As much as I appreciate that you want to help me out this is something that I need to do alone” I replied as I made my way through my crowd of friends. “Brad…please” I spoke up when he tried to protest. “If there is the slightest chance that I may not lose my job than having you all there may ruin it…not that I don’t appreciate it because it really does mean the world me to that you’d do this for me” I had tears in my eyes as I hugged and kissed them one by one, holding onto Brad the longest because as much as my mouth told them to stay my heart really wanted them next to me as I faced the firing squad. “I love you guys and I’ll see you when I get back” I gave them all a small wave as I stepped into the elevator, never feeling more scared and alone once the door shut.
“It wasn’t bad enough that you flaunted your gayness last night at the gala but now you have to come in here and disrespect our boss and this company by dressing like you’re going out to a club…a gay one I’m sure” Frank spouted off the moment I entered the lobby to Mr. Standish’s office.
“Good morning Kris” I heard his personal secretary greet me as I ignored Frank and walked over towards the desk she was sitting behind. “You did an amazing job” She winked at me nodding over in Frank’s direction. “No one deserved it more” She spoke under her breath but I knew Franks had heard it as the scowl on his face.
“Well don’t you think this is over by any means. I’ve already spoken to my lawyers and there will be action taken” He barked out loudly, causing me to laugh as he turned to face me fully and I saw the full extent of what I had inflicted on him the night before.
“That’s enough Frank” We all heard my boss speak as the door to his office opened. “I will need you in on this meeting as well Miss Lemon as a witness and for dictation” He said to his secretary with a smile before he turned and walked into his office. Closing my eyes I hung back for a bit as Frank rushed in after him, sending out a silent prayer that this was over quickly.
“It’s going to be ok Kris” I heard her say as I opened my eyes and found Miss Lemon standing in front of me. “Trust me” I could only nod because as much as I wanted to believe her the truth was there were way to many strikes against me, the biggest one being that my homophobic boss knew that I was gay.
"First off I want to tell you how disappointed I am in you Mr. Allen" Mr. Standish began with a look on his face that I could not quite read. "I don't know what you were doing in there and I don't want to know but the fact that there were two grown men in a rest room stall it just screams inappropriate. I can't explain how bad that looked to me and the guests attending our gala"
"I know and I'm so sorry sir" I replied, my head hung low because I hated that I had disappointed him. The fact of the matter was that despite being a total homophobe I looked up to the man and what he had accomplished.
"You are such a disgrace” Frank sneered, looking almost gleeful.
"You are no better Franklin" My boss spoke up, directing his disapproving stare at Frank instead. "If you hadn't acted like a five year old in your efforts to show me what Mr. Allen was up too then this wouldn't have elevated in the way that it did"
"But Uncle...I was trying to show you the disgusting things that he was up too. I was only thinking about you and this company and how his disgusting actions could affect everything” Frank cried out.
"Uncle..." I said to myself because I had no idea that Frank was related to the boss.
"I told you to never call me that" Mr. Standish roared. "I haven't decided what I'm going to do about your behavior last night but you are dismissed until I do” I could tell that Frank had more to say but he kept his mouth closed. Instead he glared at me in a way that should have burnt me to ash if he had held super powers and stormed out of the office. I hung my head again once Frank was gone taking a few deep breaths because I was sure my firing was next. "Could you leave us for a moment" He said to Miss Lemon.
"Yes Sir" She replied with a smile in my directions as she walked past me.
We sat in silence for what felt like forever but in reality it was only a few minutes. "I just want to apologize again for my behavior last night. You were right it was very inappropriate and it shouldn’t have happened” I broke the silence ready for the ax to be dropped so I could leave and try and move forward in my life. "And you're probably going to fire me anyway but as sorry as I am for what happened I won't apologize for being gay” He still said nothing as he reached into the top drawer of his desk and pulled out something. I wasn't sure what it was but he stared at it for a long moment before he slid it across the desk towards me. It turned out to be a black and white picture of two men, a familiar looking man grinning at the camera and the other looking at the grinning man with such love in his eyes. "I don't understand" I said as I look down at the picture once again
"His name was Redmond Jefferson and he was the love of my life” He explained as I looked up at him with wide eyes as he took the photo back from me. "Am I to assume that the man with you were in the bathroom with was your boyfriend?"
"My ex..." I swallowed hard as I recalled just how much I missed Adam before I forced myself to look him in the eyes. "So you're gay?" I questioned because nothing was making sense to me and yet at the same time it kind of did.
"All my life" He replied with a hint of sadness to his voice as he continued to look at the picture in his hand.
"I don't understand” I said at first but then realized that my boss and I were more alike than I ever thought possible. "You know what I take that back because I can totally understand why you would keep that part of yourself private" I said, feeling just as miserable as he looked. “I fell in love with an amazing man and because of my fear of what you…my family and the whole world might think about that love I lost him”
“Seems we have that in common” He sighed, placing the photo down on the desk as he looked over at me. “When we met I was completely hidden in the closet with no desire to even consider coming out, but from the first moment I laid eyes on him I felt a willingness to at least think about it. He was interested too but he wanted nothing to do with me at first because of my closeted status, but as much as he tried to avoid me he couldn’t stay away” He smiled sadly with a faraway look on his face. “He was patient for a long time and I kept assuring him over and over again that I loved him and that I would always choose him no matter what, yet when my Father found out about us I pushed him away and did the exact opposite. I put myself back in the closet and married the girl my Father chose for me to marry and lived the life that he expected me to live. I tried to stay away from him after I was married but I couldn’t. He was the love of my life and I somehow convinced him to continue to be my little secret. We were secret lovers for two years before my Father found us together one night. He gave me one last ultimatum to either continue down my path of sin with my lover and lose my family and the company I had worked so hard for or to do the right thing and leave Red and my secret life style behind. I didn’t even hesitate to toss the love I felt for him away because I was petrified of losing everything. My Father then had some goons beat the shit out of Red while he held me there and forced me to watch. I never saw him again after that night” I didn’t say anything as he tried to compose himself and although I had no idea why he was confiding in me I was glad that he felt safe enough that he could. “After that I just refused to accept anything associated with being gay. I forced myself to believe that what I felt for Red was just an experiment…a passing fancy and continued to live the lie my life had become and here I am fifty years later”
I really didn’t know what I was supposed to say to his words but I didn’t get a chance to say anything at the loud commotion going on behind us. I knew who it was before he even made himself present and although I still wasn’t sure if I was going to be fired or not I was pretty sure that with Brad added to the equation it was pretty sure that I would be. “I tried to stop him Sir but he wouldn’t listen” I heard Miss. Lemon’s frantic voice cry out as I turned around in my seat and not only found Brad but everyone gathered in my kitchen earlier that morning standing there.
TBC...