I thought it would hurt more to see
but it really didn't. It was kind of a relief. I am sad about it...well I know I will be at times, but it's not like this hasn't been going on for a long time. It's also not like I didn't realize what was happening. I thought about trying to talk about it, but I felt dismissed too many times, and I truly think I would've been making an ass out of myself to think she might still care.
Well that's one problem solved so to speak. I do want a new livejournal, and I know it won't take long to make one and write in it, but I'm not gonna do it right now. Not too sure why. I guess I would have to let people know and hope they add me back. I miss when everyone wrote in their journal. My friend space, I guess you could call it that, is so dead.
I've been very sick! I got a cold last Saturday and was out till Tuesday. Wednesday was good.. I remained afebrile ;)Then last night I hadn't eaten much, and I was starving. Me and Mike go to Subway on Thursday, so I worked out as usual and decided I would eat with Mike. I started to feel nauseous, but I thought I had just waited too long to eat. I assumed I would feel better after I ate, but WHAT REALLY HAPPENED WAS: I threw up, had a diarrhea stool, and threw up again all in the Subway bathroom!! I came home and threw up and was very cold.
When I woke up today I had a fever again. It was most inconvenient because I had a freaking test, project, and homework assignment to complete. It didn't help that my teacher didn't even reply to my email asking for help. At this point I didn't care that much. I've been so sick this past week,and I've had to suck it up and do my homework. I tried my best on the test, turned the project in late, and said fuck it on the assignment. Being sick makes me kind of happy. I just lay there and reflect. I allow myself to escape from the world to get better.
Well I hope I am better for my birthday on Monday! I don't know what I'll do. I think Mike will have to work :(
Well that's one problem solved so to speak. I do want a new livejournal, and I know it won't take long to make one and write in it, but I'm not gonna do it right now. Not too sure why. I guess I would have to let people know and hope they add me back. I miss when everyone wrote in their journal. My friend space, I guess you could call it that, is so dead.
I've been very sick! I got a cold last Saturday and was out till Tuesday. Wednesday was good.. I remained afebrile ;)Then last night I hadn't eaten much, and I was starving. Me and Mike go to Subway on Thursday, so I worked out as usual and decided I would eat with Mike. I started to feel nauseous, but I thought I had just waited too long to eat. I assumed I would feel better after I ate, but WHAT REALLY HAPPENED WAS: I threw up, had a diarrhea stool, and threw up again all in the Subway bathroom!! I came home and threw up and was very cold.
When I woke up today I had a fever again. It was most inconvenient because I had a freaking test, project, and homework assignment to complete. It didn't help that my teacher didn't even reply to my email asking for help. At this point I didn't care that much. I've been so sick this past week,and I've had to suck it up and do my homework. I tried my best on the test, turned the project in late, and said fuck it on the assignment. Being sick makes me kind of happy. I just lay there and reflect. I allow myself to escape from the world to get better.
Well I hope I am better for my birthday on Monday! I don't know what I'll do. I think Mike will have to work :(