New things and Gratitude

[gjcoldscuddles]

I sometimes find it hard to be happy. Most of the time I am satisfied, but a larger portion than I would like is unhappiness. It isn't a matter of feeling sorry for myself, being depressed, or ungrateful. I describe it as an inability to be happy and optimistic and stay that way. I know people have their off days, but I have more than I want. I

Comments

[starr07]

ahh! I totally feel ya on this one. like I know I have
it easier orr better than some other people, but
for some reason, I can't just be happy & STAY that way.
& to think I was on the only who felt like this..

& aww I'm very grateful for having you in my
life as well! I really mean that. we may not talk
or hang out as often as we would like, but you
really are one of my best friends & I just love
your being! don't know if you get that, but I think
you know what I'm trying to say haha.

&& I think we should start working out together!
Lord knows my ass needs to stop being lazy haha

[gjcoldscuddles]

awww Britney you're so sweet<33 that really surprises me that you feel the same way too cause you're always happy. Then again some people tell me, "you're always so happy!!" and I'm like ....

and you're definitely one of my best friends too. You're like a bright light in my life :D hehe I think working out together sounds geewwd. Maybe this Sunday or something?

[starr07]

yeahh I knoww, I get that a lot. but I tend to
kinda act like nothing is bothering me. because
I don't want people to know I'm hurting I guess.
but recently its been catching up with me & I'm
distancing myself from certain people =/

hehe aww how sweeeet <3 I feel the same about
you! & I'm glad that sounds really lesbian! haha

but hmm, idk about sunday because I work
5 to 11:30 I believe. & then the same for the
following 2 days.. I can let you know what
a good day would be & see if its good for you?

[gjcoldscuddles]

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously I didn't want to tell you I was standing you up today if you did say yes. I wasn't in the mood to go today, so I'm happy that you have to work :D your idea sounds good. I'm pretty much free everyday, but Tuesday and Thursday I go to Yoga. I'm on this good streak where I work out 6 days a week, so any day besides Tuesday, Thursday, and Sunday should work.

N-E-Wayz [junior high style :P] I'm pretty much right there with you, especially after that bad day I had last week. I felt like there was no one I could talk to until I got your message :)
Ps. who have you been distancing yourself from if you don't mind me asking?

[starr07]

omg! what a biitch! hehe I'm just keeeedin. it's coo :] to be honest, not too sure how long I'm gonna be employed at good ol qvc.. I had an interview on friday & it took longer than expected & I had to call in. & I'm kind of already at my limit or points. I'm at work right now actually, soo I'm just waiting for someone to come pull me out & tell me I'm fired =/ haha

ohh no no noo. it was like *N*E*Wayz! with the stars duhhh! guess you weren't as cool as me :P haha jk. aww I really am so sad that you had a horrible day & felt like you couldn't talk to anyone. I don't think anyone should feel like that. soo member I'm always here <3

but okkk, I work manana & then I'm off on Wednesday so I'll give you a hollaaaa :] but dayyyum guuurl! working out 6 days a week! don't think I could ever do that! haha

[gjcoldscuddles]

man I know! It's gone by fast and it helps cause I don't do much every day anyway. It just sucks cause I haven't lost N*E*W8 ;) I'm building muscle, but damn I just want to see the scale move after doing all this work...

Anyway, thanks for being there for me. Even though you didn't get the message, it was still the first time I unloaded my baggage on a friend in a long time. Wednesday sounds good to me!!

[starr07]

well that's good to hear. I need to get in the habit of eating right & fitting in alittle exercise. I feel ya on scale part. when I was on a diet [way back when haha] I didn't lose much & I got sad. I mean, who cares about muscle!? haha jk

aww I'm still sad about not getting the message. I'm gonna write senor Tom an evil message! with my devil horns on! haha. & I'm sorry we weren't able to hang out yesterday, I got tied up with that stupid blackie Gregory haha. & I have a few things to do today soo I'm not too sure we can do it today.. ughh I hate when I think I have nothing to do & BAM I get hit with a bunch of shizzzz. but I will keep you posted.

[gjcoldscuddles]

myspace has been acting weird like that. I've been clicking the comment back button when I get a comment, and it posts the comments on my page. I hope it gets fixed cause that shit is absurd :P I guess it's ok that you didn't get the message cause a lot of that was temporary.. I definitely was missing my coping skills that day.
And it's ok about yesterday. I didn't have that much free time either because I was doing favors for my parents and stuff, plus it would've been kind of not good if I did your hair then took you out to get sweaty or vice versa... cause I know you stank girl! :P ;P

[starr07]

yeahh I noticed that! I "commented back" to one of my friends & I was like heyyy! that nigga be ignoring me! haha. Tom needs to hop on this problem a.s.a.p! before I use my Facebook for realzzz! haha

I wasn't planning on yesterday being a crazyy day but I ended up doing a whiole bunch of errands. I work today but I think that's about all that I'm gonna do. welll except end up at my mom's as always :] hehe you knowww me! I would have either sweated it out orr taken a dip in some water! haha jk. even though my hair really is a hot mess because I went swimming yesterday & haven't done anything but wash it & throw some grease on it! ohhh the joys of being black haha

[gjcoldscuddles]

hehe that was a real LOL. I was wondering how it would look if I grabbed one of my mom's picks and just frow'd it out :D Does it straighten well or does it need a relaxer?
I was wondering how many people also use their face book or who have one cause Myspace has been so boring.. then again it could just be the lack of daily activities in my summer