New things and Gratitude
I sometimes find it hard to be happy. Most of the time I am satisfied, but a larger portion than I would like is unhappiness. It isn't a matter of feeling sorry for myself, being depressed, or ungrateful. I describe it as an inability to be happy and optimistic and stay that way. I know people have their off days, but I have more than I want. I also know I don't need to feel like this because everything is essentially okay. I'm working on thinking and behavior patterns, and that I am optimistic about. I relapse into previous patterns sometimes, but ya know.. Rome.This weekend was really awesome because I fit in time with old friends, my cousins that made Christmas much lonelier when they stopped coming because there's 5 of them (all siblings), my mom's side of the family including my grandparents, and my dad. Well when all that was over I was really lonely, so I thought to boost the happy factor I would post an entry in my gratitude journal. What is it? Ten things?
I am grateful for...
1. Friends I have kept in touch with and continued to hang out with for years ( Britney, Lawrence, Chris etc)
2. Becoming the runner I wanted to be!!! (I've upped my stamina to be able to run for 10 minutes straight. Not fast or easily, but still!!)
3. The possibility of change in relationships
4. Not being those people who are easily suggested
5. finding yoga and staying committed to it for almost 2 years. Wooo!!!
6. Not noticing the difference in happiness from when I did smoke weed and now. I would hate to be miserable without it, but it's like.. "what is different now from then?"
7. Having an ok sense of self control.
8. not being too hard on myself and the inspiration I got from Beyonce to be my own best friend. Life is hard enough, I might as well give myself a break if I can't ask that of anyone else or anything else.
9. Liking working out, even if I hate sit ups and push ups
10. My sweetie pie being the one who is chipper every day. One would look at him and might assume I was the upbeat one, but it's actually him :)
Not sure how those stack up to the 1st entry. They probably have some of the same, but that's okie.
I am grateful for...
1. Friends I have kept in touch with and continued to hang out with for years ( Britney, Lawrence, Chris etc)
2. Becoming the runner I wanted to be!!! (I've upped my stamina to be able to run for 10 minutes straight. Not fast or easily, but still!!)
3. The possibility of change in relationships
4. Not being those people who are easily suggested
5. finding yoga and staying committed to it for almost 2 years. Wooo!!!
6. Not noticing the difference in happiness from when I did smoke weed and now. I would hate to be miserable without it, but it's like.. "what is different now from then?"
7. Having an ok sense of self control.
8. not being too hard on myself and the inspiration I got from Beyonce to be my own best friend. Life is hard enough, I might as well give myself a break if I can't ask that of anyone else or anything else.
9. Liking working out, even if I hate sit ups and push ups
10. My sweetie pie being the one who is chipper every day. One would look at him and might assume I was the upbeat one, but it's actually him :)
Not sure how those stack up to the 1st entry. They probably have some of the same, but that's okie.