Rephresh!
Idea!!!!
Well here I am alone on a saturday night because I had to study for my test. Yes I am a slave to nursing again. Michael went to a party and I stayed here bc it's too loud to study at my house. My 2yo brother really has it in for me. When it's just both of us he is generally a nice toddler, but when Roger and my mom are around he tries to hit me. and does. He hit my hand with a pool stick today. I yanked it from him and walked away, and he started crying! AND I DIDN'T FEEL BAD!! I was more afraid I would get in troubies.
Oh but that is not my IDEA.
Since I really think a graditude journal would be good for my mental health and would help put the more important things in front of me, I decided I might as well incorporate it into my livejournal and classifly it under a tag. I think I'm gonna try to keep things around 15 items long to avoid taking away from the specialness of what is listed. Today I will try ten things in no particular order:
I Am Thankful for:
Well here I am alone on a saturday night because I had to study for my test. Yes I am a slave to nursing again. Michael went to a party and I stayed here bc it's too loud to study at my house. My 2yo brother really has it in for me. When it's just both of us he is generally a nice toddler, but when Roger and my mom are around he tries to hit me. and does. He hit my hand with a pool stick today. I yanked it from him and walked away, and he started crying! AND I DIDN'T FEEL BAD!! I was more afraid I would get in troubies.
Oh but that is not my IDEA.
Since I really think a graditude journal would be good for my mental health and would help put the more important things in front of me, I decided I might as well incorporate it into my livejournal and classifly it under a tag. I think I'm gonna try to keep things around 15 items long to avoid taking away from the specialness of what is listed. Today I will try ten things in no particular order:
I Am Thankful for:
- Finding yoga and my yoga instructor
- Smoking weed when it was acceptable because it really opened my eyes to my bad temper, the importance of thinking things through, and more philosophical concepts
- getting back in touch will all my girls (Britney, Holly, Valerie) over the break because it made me feel more complete :D
- Having a dad who is willing to support me till I graduate and a mom who gives me a lot of space and privacy and doesn't fucking nag me or tell me I am fat like some moms do to their kids
- liking school
- my boyfriend who supports me even when I don't have time for him because of school, is always reachable, values truth and honesty the way I do, likes to cuddles, has goals, assumes a sense of responsibility for himself, doesn't spend all his money on beer and drugs, and trusts me
- all the learning experiences I had when I was too stupid to know they weren't smart (I.E. getting in cars with people I didn't know because they were going to smoke out my cousin and I (not safe), doing ecstacy(not safe), having unprotected sex(not safe), just cause you mess around with a guy doesn't mean he will be nice to you, like you, or respect you(not smart))
- My genetics. I got diabetes in the bloodline, but for some reason I am desensitized to its threat. I am happy we don't have any sex linked or recessive diseases like hemophilia ..etc
- my brain still being intact and working fairly well after smoking all that weed for all those years
- last but not least by any means, all the male friends I have who have helped me to understand the opposite sex much better