Livejournal...
I was going to come and write a private morose entry, but I when I logged in I was so delighted to see friends updated their livejournals!
Today I was waiting till class was over to go wild with freedom. This week has been busy. I had a rushed care plan with little time for completion, two quizzes, and a paper due in sociology. When all was done I couldn't help but feel sad. It might be my upcoming period or something else I would gladly discuss with anyone in person. I just don't know. I guess I was free but not as free as I was during my break that seems a lifetime ago. my body is actually in pain here and there. I go for a simple walk/run and my knees are hurting for two days.. I've also had toothaches on two on my teeth and migraines. I wonder what the quality of life is like without things like this...
anyway I'm trying to pep myself up and remind myself of positive things about myself and circumstances. I wonder what life will be like as an actual nurse, and I wonder what field i will go into. For some reason I just see myself in pediatrics. maybe because I cannot handle the big bodies in other units or because I have a desire to plant inspirational seeds in the young. So many people have no goals, ambition, or just get involved with unhealthy things.
I had my first patient this week. A 12yo F with herpes so bad she couldn't be inspected with the speculum due to the intense pain. She had 9 unprotected sexual partners and had been having drugs handed to her since she was 7. She got chlamydia at age 11.
Her mom was worse. I wanted to help her so bad and just talk to her, but there wasn't a lot of time and there was a sitter in the room, so I didn't want to be too suggestive. I just advised her to keep in touch with as many non drug users as possible, because it seemed like everyone she was involved with.. boyfriend, mom, cousin, was using more than one drug.
I feel submerged in the abyss of the school semester, but it's only the second week. Still I am proud of myself and satisfied with where I'm going. sometimes I have to remind myself I am doing well because my dad is use to it already and does not praise me the way the child inside me craves. I don't blame him for being kind of insensitive. He has done excellent for having the kind of parents he has. I have very good parents and am very gratuitous to have them.
Hhhmm... more happy thoughts to come later!! I feel a littie better :-\
I kind of really want to attribute this to my up and coming period.. but umm no finger pointing for now.
NOTE TO SELF: CONSIDER STARTING GRATITUDE JOURNAL
-recommended by my yoga instructor and the people in The Secret, a sort of explanation of the Law of Attraction and general success
Today I was waiting till class was over to go wild with freedom. This week has been busy. I had a rushed care plan with little time for completion, two quizzes, and a paper due in sociology. When all was done I couldn't help but feel sad. It might be my upcoming period or something else I would gladly discuss with anyone in person. I just don't know. I guess I was free but not as free as I was during my break that seems a lifetime ago. my body is actually in pain here and there. I go for a simple walk/run and my knees are hurting for two days.. I've also had toothaches on two on my teeth and migraines. I wonder what the quality of life is like without things like this...
anyway I'm trying to pep myself up and remind myself of positive things about myself and circumstances. I wonder what life will be like as an actual nurse, and I wonder what field i will go into. For some reason I just see myself in pediatrics. maybe because I cannot handle the big bodies in other units or because I have a desire to plant inspirational seeds in the young. So many people have no goals, ambition, or just get involved with unhealthy things.
I had my first patient this week. A 12yo F with herpes so bad she couldn't be inspected with the speculum due to the intense pain. She had 9 unprotected sexual partners and had been having drugs handed to her since she was 7. She got chlamydia at age 11.
Her mom was worse. I wanted to help her so bad and just talk to her, but there wasn't a lot of time and there was a sitter in the room, so I didn't want to be too suggestive. I just advised her to keep in touch with as many non drug users as possible, because it seemed like everyone she was involved with.. boyfriend, mom, cousin, was using more than one drug.
I feel submerged in the abyss of the school semester, but it's only the second week. Still I am proud of myself and satisfied with where I'm going. sometimes I have to remind myself I am doing well because my dad is use to it already and does not praise me the way the child inside me craves. I don't blame him for being kind of insensitive. He has done excellent for having the kind of parents he has. I have very good parents and am very gratuitous to have them.
Hhhmm... more happy thoughts to come later!! I feel a littie better :-\
I kind of really want to attribute this to my up and coming period.. but umm no finger pointing for now.
NOTE TO SELF: CONSIDER STARTING GRATITUDE JOURNAL
-recommended by my yoga instructor and the people in The Secret, a sort of explanation of the Law of Attraction and general success