Livejournal, don't take shit for granted
For some time I had the most splendid bowel habits. They were clean, regular and beautiful. Then.. I don't even know when, I just did not shit the way I was used to. Up until 5 days ago I was going every 2-3 days. This scared and concerned me because I was trying to eat correctly but still gaining weight and not shitting. It seriously bothered me. I would look over dramatic explaining how much I was freaking out about it. The thing is I know how important it is to eliminate, so with the lost regularity and wt gain I was just a wreck. I guess it must've been 5 days ago I decided to take a "fiber laxative".. idk it was the cheapest kind of fiber I could find.. I don't like the idea of using something to make you shit, but I was desperate. Since then I have gone every day. So 5 days in a row. I feel great! I am truly happy to be shitting, no matter how inconvienient and embarrassing. The whole thing sort of reminded me of a patient I had during med-Surg II. The guy had an ostomy that I changed for him. He had been healthy all this life, then about 4 years ago he has colon cancer. From that comes all kinds of problems. He is the patient that cried with me. Twice. I can't tell you how much I appreciate someone who barely knew me, a grown man, crying in front of me because he was afraid of what the chemo would do to him this time. It almost killed him twice. We treated each other like people, and not like a nurse and a client. Well anyway... he was standing there looking in the mirror, and he said, "You know all you're life you take it for granted until you can't. Then you think 'Man, I really want to go to the bathroom."
Since the robbing I have not been as bitter as I thought. I am afraid to leave my house late or be alone there sometimes, but I suppose that is natural. I ended school with an A in clinical, a B in pharmacology, and a B in theory. that's pretty good. I really walked in there expecting to get A's in all those classes. My heart wasn't in it with pharm, and as for theory it was just too easy. Plus people who weren't studying were getting better grades than me and it was the end of the year, so that's the name of that tune. I have to urinate bad, but the bathroom is occupied. it's all I can think about.
on a random note I think Trevor and Giana are a pair of cunts that deserve each other on The Paper. I know Amanda can be a little shit herself, but every time the camera is on trevor and giana they are being negative or talking shit about Amanda. It really bothers me. I just had to get that out. At first I wasn't interested in the show, but I was so drawn in by their ferocious high school tendencies. I can't believe I was just there a year ago. I hated seeing people take Mr. Ramos for granted. I loved Ms. Arzola's class.. what else? not much honestly. After class of 06 left, I was really lonely. I kind of didn't even like going to school. 3rd period and 7th psychology always made my day. I have to pee terribly. goodnight
Since the robbing I have not been as bitter as I thought. I am afraid to leave my house late or be alone there sometimes, but I suppose that is natural. I ended school with an A in clinical, a B in pharmacology, and a B in theory. that's pretty good. I really walked in there expecting to get A's in all those classes. My heart wasn't in it with pharm, and as for theory it was just too easy. Plus people who weren't studying were getting better grades than me and it was the end of the year, so that's the name of that tune. I have to urinate bad, but the bathroom is occupied. it's all I can think about.
on a random note I think Trevor and Giana are a pair of cunts that deserve each other on The Paper. I know Amanda can be a little shit herself, but every time the camera is on trevor and giana they are being negative or talking shit about Amanda. It really bothers me. I just had to get that out. At first I wasn't interested in the show, but I was so drawn in by their ferocious high school tendencies. I can't believe I was just there a year ago. I hated seeing people take Mr. Ramos for granted. I loved Ms. Arzola's class.. what else? not much honestly. After class of 06 left, I was really lonely. I kind of didn't even like going to school. 3rd period and 7th psychology always made my day. I have to pee terribly. goodnight