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right now i need to be cleaning my room... im going to get rid of everthing i don't use/need and give it to another goodwill donation center so they can sort thru it... ahhahaha... i really need to do homework too... im glad i have tommorrow afternoon off too that way what i don't get done today i can do tommorrow... tonight chris his sister jen, linda and i are going to see "end of the spear" im excited, should be really inspiring... about missionaries who were killed for Christ... umm so i don't know, chris and i got in a simi argument over baptisim... didn't think this would ever be an issue, but kinda figured it would... its like if i were to date a calvinist or something... its like i have a set of beliefs that contradict certain doctrines of varies churches, ive studied in depth the new testament/ the bible for years to come to these conclusions and now they are set in stone in my mind... but yea, i don't think they are worth dividing christians... yet i guess if i was to marry a pastor it would be important to agree with what he was teaching... so anyways it is legitimant cause to break up over, yet we haven't... he said he doesn't want to break up over it... like and it doesn't reallly bother me so i guess we will be fine, but im kinda afraid its going to come up agian, and i don't want it to cause friction especially if were engaged or married, i rather break up now than just get closer and be torn apart... but i guess it won't come to that... right now im dying my hair blonde... hope it turns out good, i was just tired of it, and its actually at the point where i was dying it dark brown not black, so it will get lighter, so thats exciting... hmmm i dont' know, i don't feel pretty with chris, its wired, i know im pretty i guess im content and he tells me i am, but its just i don't feel like he thinks i am, i don't feel like he would pick me out if we werent set up, and it doesn't matter... but its just something i stuggle with... but who cares right? ok well im gonna go get something done now