The Last Straw
Emlyn and I are calling it quits.
I don't want to sit and enumerate all the things that "went wrong" or what I "should have" done. Rather, I just want to say that it was great while it lasted. There comes a point in the relationship where you just realize that you're done and it is time to move on. If I have gotten nothing else out of the last few months, it is that things end and you should let them go when they do, instead of fighting for something that doesn't exist anymore.
The discussion was very amicable. I think we'll be able to remain friends (perhaps not at first, but that is understandable). It's hard to break up with someone you still love, even though you know that it is the right thing to do. At least nobody was surprised.
Even though it was my decision, I'm still upset: grieving for the loss of the relationship, even though it wasn't what I needed. We're going to try to do a handparting ceremony to round out the magic. Now there is a ceremony I never pictured myself doing.
Em is still coming down on Thurs for birthday celebrations this weekend, although I'm not sure if he'll stay with me or his girlfriend. I told him I'd be ok with either option, and I really am. We'll be doing the whole "what belongs to who" thing. Luckily, we don't really own anything together, and things we do could easily find a clear owner. Hopefully this won't be the most awkward birthday party ever.
Next on the agenda is finding a subletter so I can get the frack out of here. If all goes as planned, I'll be out of here the first or second week of June. I'm moving in with M in Puyallup, and am really looking forward to being home. There is very little tying me to Bellingham now. There's a lot of work to do between here and there, but mostly emotional and heavy lifting.
It is very strange to think that in a month, my life will be a complete 360 from just three months ago. I'm pretty sure there can't possibly be anymore changes right now. Gods, I hope I'm not pregnant... (ok, I know I'm not, but wouldn't it be just that ironic?).
By the way, how do you go about getting a divorce? Everything on the internet makes it sound complicated, but we don't really have communal property, kids, and aren't fighting about money. I hope it doesn't cost much.
Despite how it all sounds, I'm really ok. But Dear Dionysus: Well Done, your work here is finished.
I don't want to sit and enumerate all the things that "went wrong" or what I "should have" done. Rather, I just want to say that it was great while it lasted. There comes a point in the relationship where you just realize that you're done and it is time to move on. If I have gotten nothing else out of the last few months, it is that things end and you should let them go when they do, instead of fighting for something that doesn't exist anymore.
The discussion was very amicable. I think we'll be able to remain friends (perhaps not at first, but that is understandable). It's hard to break up with someone you still love, even though you know that it is the right thing to do. At least nobody was surprised.
Even though it was my decision, I'm still upset: grieving for the loss of the relationship, even though it wasn't what I needed. We're going to try to do a handparting ceremony to round out the magic. Now there is a ceremony I never pictured myself doing.
Em is still coming down on Thurs for birthday celebrations this weekend, although I'm not sure if he'll stay with me or his girlfriend. I told him I'd be ok with either option, and I really am. We'll be doing the whole "what belongs to who" thing. Luckily, we don't really own anything together, and things we do could easily find a clear owner. Hopefully this won't be the most awkward birthday party ever.
Next on the agenda is finding a subletter so I can get the frack out of here. If all goes as planned, I'll be out of here the first or second week of June. I'm moving in with M in Puyallup, and am really looking forward to being home. There is very little tying me to Bellingham now. There's a lot of work to do between here and there, but mostly emotional and heavy lifting.
It is very strange to think that in a month, my life will be a complete 360 from just three months ago. I'm pretty sure there can't possibly be anymore changes right now. Gods, I hope I'm not pregnant... (ok, I know I'm not, but wouldn't it be just that ironic?).
By the way, how do you go about getting a divorce? Everything on the internet makes it sound complicated, but we don't really have communal property, kids, and aren't fighting about money. I hope it doesn't cost much.
Despite how it all sounds, I'm really ok. But Dear Dionysus: Well Done, your work here is finished.