Right Here 6.2/12
TITLE: Right Here
AUTHOR: giveitupjessica
PAIRING: MinKey, JongYu, YoungTae, broken!OnKey, JongTae, InaDay
GENRE: romance, comedy, smut, blah blah blah
RATING: G-NC17 (depending on the chapter)
SUMMARY: I’m the one you kiss in the morning. I’ll send you out to the world with my loving. I ain’t gonna trip ‘cause you always gonna keep it right here.
A/N: So this extremely long chapter is dedicated to fantasydesire and patzmelody01 because I promised both of you an update yesterday and it never came. MIANHE!!! I had a meeting at work at 6 and had to cook mochiko chicken and bulgogi for it. Then we ended up going bowling afterwards. And my back was hurting all night. MIANHE!!! And I would have posted this sooner, but my friend called me last minute to go shopping. haha. But to make up for it, this chapter is super duper long! OH AND PLEASE GO AND VOTE FOR MY FIC 3 VANILLA CANDLES OVER AT shawol_haven THANKS SO MUCH!!!
CHAPTER SIX PART TWO
“Onew,” I say as I bring the popcorn over to the couch, he opens his arms for me and I quickly occupy the space. I smile when his arms close around me and pulls me closer to him. My head rests on his shoulder and I feel him place a kiss on the top of my head.
“Yes?” his attention is partially on the movie we had just started and me as he reaches into the bowl. He grabs a few pieces of popcorn and feeds them to me before grabbing a handful for himself. I swear he was like a bottomless pit, even though we had just started the movie not too long ago this was already our second bowl of popcorn. Not to mention we cooked and ate a pretty big dinner together a few hours ago as well.
“Do you have any regrets about this?”
“About what?” I can sense that I had his full attention now and I turn my head to see that he’s staring right at me.
“About us. I mean you broke up a 3+ year relationship with Key and I broke up an almost 1 year relationship with Taemin so we can be together.”
“So?”
“So you don’t even regret it a little? I mean is there any part of you, even a miniscule part, that regrets doing it?”
“Why are you asking this all of a sudden?”
“I’m just curious?”
“Do you feel like I’m regretting this?”
“No, it’s not that. It’s just that I don’t feel any guilt about this whatsoever. I don’t even feel guilty about our first kiss. Not even a little and I feel like I should. I mean we technically cheated on both Key and Taemin that night. Yet I don’t feel any guilt or remorse.”
“And that’s bothering you?”
“Yeah, I mean I thought I cared for Taemin more than that. But I feel that since I don’t feel guilty about kissing you that night, that perhaps I didn’t.”
“Baby,” he squeezes me and I look back up at him. He places a soft kiss on my lips, “You and I have known one another longer than we’ve known Key or Taemin. And I can’t speak for you, but I’ve loved you for majority of that time. I just never thought you felt the same way about me. I did feel a little bad the next day when Key and I were talking about the kiss, but I didn’t feel guilty. I didn’t want to taint our first kiss with guilt. Yes, we were both in a relationship at the time, but we can’t help what we feel for one another. I love you and I’m not going to feel bad for it.”
“I know honey and I love you too, but,” before I can finish my sentence he kisses me again.
“No buts baby. There’s nothing wrong about not feeling guilty. When we kissed for the first time it felt right and that’s all that matters.”
I lean over and kiss him on the lips this time, “And it still feels right every single time.”
“And that’s all that matters right?”
“I don’t know,” I scoot closer to him and feel his breath on the back of my neck as he let’s out a long sigh, “Honey, I’m sorry, but I can’t help the way I feel. I mean shouldn’t we feel bad for ruining our relationship? Just even a little?”
“So you’re pretty much feeling guilty about not feeling guilty.”
“Yes.”
“What do I need to do to make you stop feeling guilty?”
“I don’t know. I’ve been feeling like this for the past couple days. I’m not sure what needs to happen for it to go away?”
“Do we need to make out in front of Taemin and Key?”
“What?” I turn to him with wide eyes and he’s snickering at me. I slap his chest as hard as I can, “YAH! Don’t joke around like that. Besides it’s not a good time to joke when your boyfriend is feeling lousy.”
“So then that’s a yes?”
“What are you talking about?”
“You never answered my question about being official and you just called yourself my boyfriend. So I take that as a yes to my question.”
“I’m feeling like an asshole right now because I cheated on my boyfriend and I don’t feel guilty and all you can think about is me being your official boyfriend? Are you kidding me?” I wiggle out of his grasp and get off the couch. I start to walk back to the kitchen for something to drink and I can hear him following after me. I open up the fridge and try to figure out what I want to drink when a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist, “Onew, don’t. I’m mad at you right now.”
“Baby,” his mouth is right next to my ear and I shiver a little at the feel of it, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you. But think about how you’re making me feel right now. I’m starting to think that maybe you don’t want to be with me anymore and want to go back to Taemin.”
“What?!” I turn around in his arms and he closes the fridge as he pulls our bodies away from it, “Of course I want to be with you. I love you and I want to be with you not Taemin. But shouldn’t I feel bad?”
“No, we’ve been in love with one another for so long. We were bound to tell one another eventually. The timing may not have been the best, but it happened and there’s nothing we can do about it. What’s done is done, all we can do now is live in the present and look forward to the future. Our future. Together.”
“I guess you’re right.”
“I know I’m right. Now can we get back to our date?”
“What date? We’ve spent the whole day in your apartment.”
“I call this a date. We ate and now we’re watching a movie. So it’s a date.”
“If you say so, but if you ask me you’re totally slacking in the boyfriend department. You’ve become comfortable way too fast. I don’t get flowers or chocolates or anything.”
“Since when did you become a girl? And besides, of course I’m comfortable with you, you’ve been my best friend since college. Now come on, let’s go finish the movie,” he grabs my hand and leads me back to the couch. We quickly curl back up on the couch together. I have the popcorn bowl on my lap, occasionally feeding both of us some popcorn.
I have to admit that I have no idea what’s going on in the movie at this point. I’m pretty much just watching the figures on the tv, not really paying attention to the dialogue at all. I quickly get bored though and look up at Onew. He must feel my eyes on him because he turns to look back at me.
“Do I have something on my face?” he asks as he wipes his face with his hand.
“No.”
“Then why are you staring at me?”
“I’m bored honey.”
“Watch the movie,” he points to the tv and returns his attention to it.
“But I have no idea what’s going on in it.”
“Oh well then I’ll catch you up,” his eyes are glued to the tv and I don’t like it one bit. I want his attention right now, “You see that guy there in the blue suit, he’s the lead male and he’s the owner of this big company. And that guy there is his half brother who is out to get him because he thinks that his brother got the life that he was supposed to have. Oh did I mention that his half brother was put up for adoption? Oh and you see that girl!” I know it’s bad, but I start to tune him out because I could care less about the movie at this point. I can always watch it again later if I wanted, which I doubt I will since I wasn’t able to get into the movie tonight.
“Honey,” I place my hand over his mouth to get him to stop talking and he does. His attention is back on me, well part of it at least since I can see that he’s still watching the movie out of the corner of his eyes. That’s not going to work for me, I want his full attention. I lean over and place the popcorn bowl on the coffee table in front of us and turn to him, “Is there anything else you want to do tonight?”
“Baby, I’m not in the mood to go out. We had a long week, I just want to stay in and cuddle with you and watch the movie,” he points to the tv and is about to turn his back to it, but I grab his face and make sure it stays on me.
“Nothing else at all?”
“Huh?”
“You can’t think of anything else you’d rather be doing tonight? Or anyone?”
“What?”
I let out a frustrated sigh. I guess I’ll have to show him what I had in mind. I shift a little in his arms and start to place light kisses up his neck and across his jawline until I reach his lips. I hear a soft hum of approval before I push our lips together. I know that the movie is the last thing on his mind at this point. The only thing he’s thinking about is our lips. I feel his hands start to move from my shoulders down to my waist. They start to coax my body into moving and I quickly get the message. I shift myself so that I’m straddling his lap and our kiss deepens.
I start to nibble on his juicy, plump lower lip and pay no attention to when he opens his mouth for me. Whenever I nibble on his bottom lip, it’s not because I’m asking for entrance but rather that I just think it’s extremely bitable. It’s so thick and plump. Gosh I loved it, that and his thighs, the same thighs that my hands were currently massaging.
“Baby, quit teasing,” he mumbles against my lips.
“You talk too much,” I reply, intensifying the kiss by pushing my tongue into his mouth. He gives another hum of approval as our tongues start to move against one another. He starts to move underneath me and it only takes a couple seconds before he has me on my back. I don’t waste any time letting my hands wander down his back to the hem of his shirt and quickly lifting it up and over his head. The rest of our clothes are quickly added to his shirt as our hands start to roam our bodies, getting familiar with the flesh underneath them.
“Baby,” he says, pulling away from me. I bring my hand up to his face and lovingly caress it.
“Hm?”
“You sure about this?”
“About us being together, officially,” a big grin crosses his face and he leans in to kiss me quickly, “Or about what we’re about to do?”
“Both.”
I smirk at him, “100%,” I pull his head back down so our lips can meet in another heated kiss. Our hands continue to travel over the now slightly slick skin under them. His fingers are pushed into my mouth just as I grab both of our erections between our hands. I had to use both my hands since he is well-endowed and that’s putting it lightly. I’m a little nervous about bottoming for him. Not only will it be my first time, but I don’t think he’ll fit inside of me.
“Suck baby,” he orders me, his lips finding their way to my neck. I start to suck on his fingers, getting them nicely coated for what they are going to be doing to me in no time, “Relax for me baby. I’ll make sure you barely feel any pain.”
“Mmhm,” I nod my head and he pulls his fingers out of me. He places a soft kiss on my lips before bringing his fingers down to my waiting hole. I can feel the tip of his finger teasing me and I wiggle myself to try to get it inside of me already. I’d rather get this part done and over with so that we can get to the even pleasurable stuff. My hands start to softly massage our lengths as they continue to move up and down them.
“Have I told you just how much you turn me on?” he says into my ear, taking the love into his mouth and sucking on it. A soft moan escapes my mouth, his first finger pushing through the rings of my hole to stretch me. I’m starting to get more and more impatient because I just want him inside of me at this point. I needed him inside of me.
“Honey, hurry up, I can’t wait much longer,” I attach my lips to his neck, sucking on it and biting it, “I want you so bad right now. Please honey.”
“I don’t want to hurt you though.”
“I don’t care at this point. Please,” I know that I’m begging at this point, but I don’t care. I just wanted him to fill me up completely.
“Mm, I love it when you beg,” he withdraws his fingers and I spread the precum that’s leaking out of him as best as I can around his erection. His hand replaces mine around it as he pulls away from me just enough to position himself. I spread my legs as wide as they can on the limited space of the couch. Just the tip is pressing against my slightly stretched hole and I can already tell it’s going to hurt quite a bit, but I don’t care. I want him so bad.
“Just do it,” I say, a small amount of his flesh between my teeth.
“Okay,” he slowly starts to push himself into me and my back arches off the couch. My head falls back on the cushion and I start to bite down on my lower lip. The pain is excruciating, I hope it goes away soon because I don’t know how much I’ll be able to withstand. He starts to kiss me between haggard mumbles of, “I’m sorry” and “I love you.”
“I love you too,” I respond and do my best to drown myself in the kiss, anything to get my mind off the pain that I’m felling right now. How could anyone enjoy bottoming?
“Can I move baby?” he asks.
“Um, okay,” I say and brace myself for more pain, but it never comes. He pulls out of me and pushes back in swiftly, unexpectantly hitting my prostate in the process.
“Onew!” I moan, “Right there honey. Do it again.”
Our bodies take a little time to get in sync with one another, but we quickly develop a steady, rhythmic tempo. Our breathing turns into panting and soft mewls turn into full on moans as we continue with our steady give and take motions. I knew that when we finally did it, it would be good, but I never expected that it would be amazing. The pleasure coursing through our bodies is slowly building in the pits of our stomachs. I can feel that my climax is just around the corner and he must be able to feel it too because his thrusts start to speed up. I wrap my legs around his waist, my head thrown back as a continuous moan leaves my mouth.
“I’m close honey. So close.”
“Me too. Wait for me baby.”
“I don’t know if I can.”
“Please just wait for me.”
“I’ll try,” both of our bodies that were once moving with ease, were now crashing and bumping sloppily against each other until neither one of us can take it anymore. I reach my climax first, the pent up pleasure crashing through me as I spill my seed all over our stomachs. He follows not too long after me and I didn’t think I would like it, but the feeling of his cum filling me up just adds to my orgasm. Our bodies continue to rock against one another while we ride out our orgasms. Our breathing start to even out slowly and he crashes our lips together. We start to lazily make out, our hands softly caressing our sweaty bodies.
“I really do love you Kim Jonghyun,” he says to me, propping himself up above me. He moves the matted down bangs out of my eyes kisses my forehead.
“I really love you too Lee Jinki,” I reply. We don’t bother to turn off the tv, the movie had ended somewhere in the middle of our love making, as we snuggle up on the couch. I push my body closer to his so I don’t fall off the couch in the middle of the night. Our eyelids are heavy from exhaustion. His breathing evens out and I know that he’s fell asleep first. I give his chest a kiss and close my eyes, allowing sleep to take over my body.
He was right, I had nothing to be worried about. This felt right. Being in his arms was definitely where I was supposed to be. I can’t believe I was worrying about not feeling guilty in the first place. I love Onew and he loves me. There’s nothing for us to be ashamed or feel bad about. Yeah, nothing at all.
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I was having an amazing time with Key. We didn’t have a lot in common. He was really into fashion while I was more into sports, but we still got along amazingly well. We were still able to hold comfortable conversations with ease and little effort at all. We were almost complete opposites, but because of that we complimented each other so well. I was starting to fall for him the more I learnt about him.
“Whoa is that really the time?” I ask after checking my watch. We’ve been sitting in this both for almost four hours now and I feel like we just go here. He just giggles and shakes his head. I guess I shouldn’t have let him drink so much while we were here, but it was hard to keep count on the number of drinks he was having. I was too engrossed in our conversations to pay much attention at all.
“Is it past curfew for you Minho-ssi?” he jokes and dissolves into another fit of giggles. Yeah, he definitely had too much to drink. It’s a good think I was driving and not him.
“It’s nothing like that. I just promised my baby-sitter that I’d be by to pick up Yoogeun and his friends no later than midnight. It’s already past one in the morning.”
“Oh I see,” his face gets serious really fast as he stares at me, “You’re such a great appa Minho-ssi.”
“Thanks Key,” I start to scoot out of my side of the booth, grabbing both of our jackets in the process, “We better get going. They’ll be closing down the diner soon and I need to pick up Yoogeun and drop you off at your place as well.”
“Okay,” he nearly falls out of the booth, but I’m move fast enough to catch him before he can come remotely close to the floor. He’s giggling again and normally I’d be annoyed by it, but when he does it, it’s cute, “Thanks Hoho.”
“Hoho?” I laugh, helping him into his jacket and leading him out of the diner. I nod my thanks and good bye to the owners as we leave.
“Yes, Hoho. I’ve decided that that will be my pet name for you,” he taps my nose a couple times and we walk out into the cool night, “Because you’re so cute my little Hoho.”
“Okay, you’ve definitely had way too much to drink tonight. I should have cut you off once we left that party,” I continue to lead him to my car, helping him into it once we get there. I rush over to my side and hop into the car as well. I rub my hands together before turning the key in the ignition. It was kind of cold in my car. I reach over and turn on the heat before reaching over and grabbing the seat belt to pull across Key.
“Hoho,” he mumbles and touches my face. I look over at him and he smiles at me, “I like you.”
“I like you too Key,” I move back into my seat and buckle myself in then pull out of the parking space.
“No, Hoho, I don’t think you understand what I’m saying.”
“How do I get to your place?”
“Hoho,” he places his hand on top of mine, “I’m talking about something important and you’re asking for directions.”
“Well I need to know where I’m going.”
“That can wait.”
“Key,” I turn to look at him as I wait for our light to turn green, “We’ll talk about that next time. Right now I need to know how to get to your apartment.”
“Just get on the road that will lead you there.”
“I need to know which road it is and how to get to that road though.”
“Ugh, Hoho, you’re ruining the mood.”
“I’m just trying to drop you off at home.”
“Whatever,” he drops his hand from mine and starts to mess around with my radio. He finds a station he likes and turns up the volume, “OH I LOVE THIS SONG!”
“I guess you’ll be sleeping at my place tonight since you obviously aren’t in the right state to give directions,” I say to myself. I can see him dancing out of the corners of my eyes and again I find it to be extremely cute.
“Hoho, is it hot in here?” he starts to fan himself and I turn off the head, “Are you hot? I’m hot.”
“You can roll down the window if you want.”
“Thanks,” he quickly rolls down his window all the way. He rests his arms on the ledge and brings his head down to lay on them. I can see his eyes close as the night air cools him down. When we’re stopped at another red light, I find myself staring at him. He looks so beautiful with the way the moonlight hits his face at just the right angle. I’m tempted to lean over and steal a kiss before the light turns green, but I refrain myself from doing so.
I do my best to focus on the road in front of me and we’ve reached my building in no time. I help him out of the car and he starts to lean against me as we make our way to the entrance of the building. I look down and see that his eyelids are getting heavy. It looks like it won’t take him long to fall asleep once we get upstairs. I guess he can take my bed and I’ll just sleep with Yoogeun and the kids in his room. It takes a little longer than it should for us to get to my apartment, but I ended up having to piggy back him halfway through the lobby because he wasn’t really walking anymore.
“Hoho,” he mumbles into my ear and I punch the code into my door. I figured it would probably be best if I drop him off first and then go next door to get the kids since I’m sure they’re fast asleep, at least they should be.
“Yes Key?” I answer, flipping on a few lights as I walk towards my bedroom.
“Do you remember what I said earlier?”
“You said a lot of things earlier.”
“I know, but do you remember what I said when we got into your car just now?”
“Um,” I’m not sure how to respond. I didn’t want to get a drunken confession from him. I know that people say the truth comes out when alcohol is involved, but it’d rather he tell me he likes me when I know he’ll remember it the next day.
“I like you Hoho.”
“I like you too,” I respond.
“No no Hoho. You’re not understanding me.”
“You’re drunk and tired Key. We can talk about this in the morning,” I tell him. I carefully lay him down on my bed and make sure he’s comfortable, placing pillows under his head and around him. I place a light blanket over him and help him out of his coat, throwing it over a nearby chair.
“But I want you to know that I like you Hoho.”
“I know you like me, you just told me.”
“No no Ho ho. I like like you!” he almost shouts and I cover his mouth, placing my index finger over my own lips.
“Not so loud, it’s the middle of the night. I don’t want to wake the neighbors. Now you stay here and I’m going to go next door and get the kids okay?”
“Oh I’ll go with you,” he moves to get out of bed, but I stop him. I lift his legs and place them back under the covers and adjust the top have of his body so that it’s not in an awkward position.
“No, it’s okay. I won’t be long and if you’re still up when I get back, we’ll talk more okay? But for now, you just stay here and rest,” I’m not sure what caused me to do it, but I kissed him on the forehead before walking away. I guess I was used to doing that because I always did that after tucking Yoogeun in for the night.
He smiles up at me, “Are you sure? I can help you.”
“I’m sure. I’ll be right back,” I walk out of the room and go over to the apartment next door. I knock on it a few times, but no one comes to answer. I knock on it again and lean in closer to see if I can hear any movements coming from the other side of the door. Nothing. I glance down at my watch and see it’s almost two in the morning, I guess they were all asleep. I punch in the code, which I could have done in the first place, but I don’t like using it when I know that Youngwon is home.
I step into the apartment and can fainting hear the tv coming from the living room. I quietly make my way over to the room. I glance around the corner before stepping foot inside the room, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to just take the kids with me back to the apartment or not. Sometimes I just let Yoogeun stay at Youngwon’s when I was coming home late from work and he was asleep because he was a light sleeper so moving him would wake up instantly. It’s easier to just let him continue to sleep and coming back in the morning for him than waking him and struggling to get him back to sleep.
I should probably take them tonight though since there’s three of them and not just Yoogeun. I hold back my laugh when I take in the scene in front of me though. Yoogeun is knocked out on the floor, his butt sticking up in the air, hugging a toy truck close to him. Dori had fallen asleep on the armrest of the couch and his twin sister Jess was sprawled across Youngwon and another man, rather feminine, looking man I had never seen before. He must be the math tutor I’ve heard about, which means he must be Youngwon’s crush. I’ll have to talk to him about it later, see if things are getting better for him.
I move my way towards Yoogeun and carefully pick him up off the floor. He starts to whine a little but quickly stops once he’s in my arms. He wraps his arms and legs around me, resting his head on my shoulder. I debate if I should try to grab another kid before hiding back, but decide against it. Yoogeun was holding onto me so tightly that I wouldn’t be able to comfortably carry a second child with me. I quickly go back to my apartment and lay him down on his bed. I had already set up the futon on the floor in the beginning of the night, so I just had to go and grab the twins and bring them back.
I make my way back to Youngwon’s apartment and jot down a quick note to leave on the counter before going back to get Dori and Jess.
Didn’t want to wake you & your friend up
Took the kids back to my apartment.
Thanks again for watching them. I hope
they weren’t too much trouble. We’ll
have to talk later ;)
--Minho
I place his pay next to the note and go back to the living room. I decide it’s probably best to get Jess first since she’s sprawled out over the two boys. I really didn’t want to wake them up so I carefully lift her up off their laps and she doesn’t show a single sign that she was being bothered. Her brother is the same way as I peel him off the armrest. They cling to me as we walk back to my apartment. I lay them down on the futon and wrap their blankets around their tiny bodies. I take the matching stuffed elephants from their overnight bags, the ones that Inati told me they can’t sleep without, and place the green one next to Dori and the purple next to Jess. Then I walk over to get my son’s favorite Winnie the Pooh stuffed animal and place it next to him.
I walk back to my room to get a change of clothes and see that Key is fast asleep in my bed. I would love to just climb into bed next to him, but that would be crossing the line so much. I go over and pull the blanket further up his body and turn off the light on my bedside table, “Good night Key. I like like you too.” I close the door softly behind me and go to change my clothes in the guest bathroom before going back to Yoogeun’s room. I curl up with him on his small race car bed, letting sleep take over my body almost immediately.
AUTHOR: giveitupjessica
PAIRING: MinKey, JongYu, YoungTae, broken!OnKey, JongTae, InaDay
GENRE: romance, comedy, smut, blah blah blah
RATING: G-NC17 (depending on the chapter)
SUMMARY: I’m the one you kiss in the morning. I’ll send you out to the world with my loving. I ain’t gonna trip ‘cause you always gonna keep it right here.
A/N: So this extremely long chapter is dedicated to fantasydesire and patzmelody01 because I promised both of you an update yesterday and it never came. MIANHE!!! I had a meeting at work at 6 and had to cook mochiko chicken and bulgogi for it. Then we ended up going bowling afterwards. And my back was hurting all night. MIANHE!!! And I would have posted this sooner, but my friend called me last minute to go shopping. haha. But to make up for it, this chapter is super duper long! OH AND PLEASE GO AND VOTE FOR MY FIC 3 VANILLA CANDLES OVER AT shawol_haven THANKS SO MUCH!!!
CHAPTER SIX PART TWO
“Onew,” I say as I bring the popcorn over to the couch, he opens his arms for me and I quickly occupy the space. I smile when his arms close around me and pulls me closer to him. My head rests on his shoulder and I feel him place a kiss on the top of my head.
“Yes?” his attention is partially on the movie we had just started and me as he reaches into the bowl. He grabs a few pieces of popcorn and feeds them to me before grabbing a handful for himself. I swear he was like a bottomless pit, even though we had just started the movie not too long ago this was already our second bowl of popcorn. Not to mention we cooked and ate a pretty big dinner together a few hours ago as well.
“Do you have any regrets about this?”
“About what?” I can sense that I had his full attention now and I turn my head to see that he’s staring right at me.
“About us. I mean you broke up a 3+ year relationship with Key and I broke up an almost 1 year relationship with Taemin so we can be together.”
“So?”
“So you don’t even regret it a little? I mean is there any part of you, even a miniscule part, that regrets doing it?”
“Why are you asking this all of a sudden?”
“I’m just curious?”
“Do you feel like I’m regretting this?”
“No, it’s not that. It’s just that I don’t feel any guilt about this whatsoever. I don’t even feel guilty about our first kiss. Not even a little and I feel like I should. I mean we technically cheated on both Key and Taemin that night. Yet I don’t feel any guilt or remorse.”
“And that’s bothering you?”
“Yeah, I mean I thought I cared for Taemin more than that. But I feel that since I don’t feel guilty about kissing you that night, that perhaps I didn’t.”
“Baby,” he squeezes me and I look back up at him. He places a soft kiss on my lips, “You and I have known one another longer than we’ve known Key or Taemin. And I can’t speak for you, but I’ve loved you for majority of that time. I just never thought you felt the same way about me. I did feel a little bad the next day when Key and I were talking about the kiss, but I didn’t feel guilty. I didn’t want to taint our first kiss with guilt. Yes, we were both in a relationship at the time, but we can’t help what we feel for one another. I love you and I’m not going to feel bad for it.”
“I know honey and I love you too, but,” before I can finish my sentence he kisses me again.
“No buts baby. There’s nothing wrong about not feeling guilty. When we kissed for the first time it felt right and that’s all that matters.”
I lean over and kiss him on the lips this time, “And it still feels right every single time.”
“And that’s all that matters right?”
“I don’t know,” I scoot closer to him and feel his breath on the back of my neck as he let’s out a long sigh, “Honey, I’m sorry, but I can’t help the way I feel. I mean shouldn’t we feel bad for ruining our relationship? Just even a little?”
“So you’re pretty much feeling guilty about not feeling guilty.”
“Yes.”
“What do I need to do to make you stop feeling guilty?”
“I don’t know. I’ve been feeling like this for the past couple days. I’m not sure what needs to happen for it to go away?”
“Do we need to make out in front of Taemin and Key?”
“What?” I turn to him with wide eyes and he’s snickering at me. I slap his chest as hard as I can, “YAH! Don’t joke around like that. Besides it’s not a good time to joke when your boyfriend is feeling lousy.”
“So then that’s a yes?”
“What are you talking about?”
“You never answered my question about being official and you just called yourself my boyfriend. So I take that as a yes to my question.”
“I’m feeling like an asshole right now because I cheated on my boyfriend and I don’t feel guilty and all you can think about is me being your official boyfriend? Are you kidding me?” I wiggle out of his grasp and get off the couch. I start to walk back to the kitchen for something to drink and I can hear him following after me. I open up the fridge and try to figure out what I want to drink when a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist, “Onew, don’t. I’m mad at you right now.”
“Baby,” his mouth is right next to my ear and I shiver a little at the feel of it, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you. But think about how you’re making me feel right now. I’m starting to think that maybe you don’t want to be with me anymore and want to go back to Taemin.”
“What?!” I turn around in his arms and he closes the fridge as he pulls our bodies away from it, “Of course I want to be with you. I love you and I want to be with you not Taemin. But shouldn’t I feel bad?”
“No, we’ve been in love with one another for so long. We were bound to tell one another eventually. The timing may not have been the best, but it happened and there’s nothing we can do about it. What’s done is done, all we can do now is live in the present and look forward to the future. Our future. Together.”
“I guess you’re right.”
“I know I’m right. Now can we get back to our date?”
“What date? We’ve spent the whole day in your apartment.”
“I call this a date. We ate and now we’re watching a movie. So it’s a date.”
“If you say so, but if you ask me you’re totally slacking in the boyfriend department. You’ve become comfortable way too fast. I don’t get flowers or chocolates or anything.”
“Since when did you become a girl? And besides, of course I’m comfortable with you, you’ve been my best friend since college. Now come on, let’s go finish the movie,” he grabs my hand and leads me back to the couch. We quickly curl back up on the couch together. I have the popcorn bowl on my lap, occasionally feeding both of us some popcorn.
I have to admit that I have no idea what’s going on in the movie at this point. I’m pretty much just watching the figures on the tv, not really paying attention to the dialogue at all. I quickly get bored though and look up at Onew. He must feel my eyes on him because he turns to look back at me.
“Do I have something on my face?” he asks as he wipes his face with his hand.
“No.”
“Then why are you staring at me?”
“I’m bored honey.”
“Watch the movie,” he points to the tv and returns his attention to it.
“But I have no idea what’s going on in it.”
“Oh well then I’ll catch you up,” his eyes are glued to the tv and I don’t like it one bit. I want his attention right now, “You see that guy there in the blue suit, he’s the lead male and he’s the owner of this big company. And that guy there is his half brother who is out to get him because he thinks that his brother got the life that he was supposed to have. Oh did I mention that his half brother was put up for adoption? Oh and you see that girl!” I know it’s bad, but I start to tune him out because I could care less about the movie at this point. I can always watch it again later if I wanted, which I doubt I will since I wasn’t able to get into the movie tonight.
“Honey,” I place my hand over his mouth to get him to stop talking and he does. His attention is back on me, well part of it at least since I can see that he’s still watching the movie out of the corner of his eyes. That’s not going to work for me, I want his full attention. I lean over and place the popcorn bowl on the coffee table in front of us and turn to him, “Is there anything else you want to do tonight?”
“Baby, I’m not in the mood to go out. We had a long week, I just want to stay in and cuddle with you and watch the movie,” he points to the tv and is about to turn his back to it, but I grab his face and make sure it stays on me.
“Nothing else at all?”
“Huh?”
“You can’t think of anything else you’d rather be doing tonight? Or anyone?”
“What?”
I let out a frustrated sigh. I guess I’ll have to show him what I had in mind. I shift a little in his arms and start to place light kisses up his neck and across his jawline until I reach his lips. I hear a soft hum of approval before I push our lips together. I know that the movie is the last thing on his mind at this point. The only thing he’s thinking about is our lips. I feel his hands start to move from my shoulders down to my waist. They start to coax my body into moving and I quickly get the message. I shift myself so that I’m straddling his lap and our kiss deepens.
I start to nibble on his juicy, plump lower lip and pay no attention to when he opens his mouth for me. Whenever I nibble on his bottom lip, it’s not because I’m asking for entrance but rather that I just think it’s extremely bitable. It’s so thick and plump. Gosh I loved it, that and his thighs, the same thighs that my hands were currently massaging.
“Baby, quit teasing,” he mumbles against my lips.
“You talk too much,” I reply, intensifying the kiss by pushing my tongue into his mouth. He gives another hum of approval as our tongues start to move against one another. He starts to move underneath me and it only takes a couple seconds before he has me on my back. I don’t waste any time letting my hands wander down his back to the hem of his shirt and quickly lifting it up and over his head. The rest of our clothes are quickly added to his shirt as our hands start to roam our bodies, getting familiar with the flesh underneath them.
“Baby,” he says, pulling away from me. I bring my hand up to his face and lovingly caress it.
“Hm?”
“You sure about this?”
“About us being together, officially,” a big grin crosses his face and he leans in to kiss me quickly, “Or about what we’re about to do?”
“Both.”
I smirk at him, “100%,” I pull his head back down so our lips can meet in another heated kiss. Our hands continue to travel over the now slightly slick skin under them. His fingers are pushed into my mouth just as I grab both of our erections between our hands. I had to use both my hands since he is well-endowed and that’s putting it lightly. I’m a little nervous about bottoming for him. Not only will it be my first time, but I don’t think he’ll fit inside of me.
“Suck baby,” he orders me, his lips finding their way to my neck. I start to suck on his fingers, getting them nicely coated for what they are going to be doing to me in no time, “Relax for me baby. I’ll make sure you barely feel any pain.”
“Mmhm,” I nod my head and he pulls his fingers out of me. He places a soft kiss on my lips before bringing his fingers down to my waiting hole. I can feel the tip of his finger teasing me and I wiggle myself to try to get it inside of me already. I’d rather get this part done and over with so that we can get to the even pleasurable stuff. My hands start to softly massage our lengths as they continue to move up and down them.
“Have I told you just how much you turn me on?” he says into my ear, taking the love into his mouth and sucking on it. A soft moan escapes my mouth, his first finger pushing through the rings of my hole to stretch me. I’m starting to get more and more impatient because I just want him inside of me at this point. I needed him inside of me.
“Honey, hurry up, I can’t wait much longer,” I attach my lips to his neck, sucking on it and biting it, “I want you so bad right now. Please honey.”
“I don’t want to hurt you though.”
“I don’t care at this point. Please,” I know that I’m begging at this point, but I don’t care. I just wanted him to fill me up completely.
“Mm, I love it when you beg,” he withdraws his fingers and I spread the precum that’s leaking out of him as best as I can around his erection. His hand replaces mine around it as he pulls away from me just enough to position himself. I spread my legs as wide as they can on the limited space of the couch. Just the tip is pressing against my slightly stretched hole and I can already tell it’s going to hurt quite a bit, but I don’t care. I want him so bad.
“Just do it,” I say, a small amount of his flesh between my teeth.
“Okay,” he slowly starts to push himself into me and my back arches off the couch. My head falls back on the cushion and I start to bite down on my lower lip. The pain is excruciating, I hope it goes away soon because I don’t know how much I’ll be able to withstand. He starts to kiss me between haggard mumbles of, “I’m sorry” and “I love you.”
“I love you too,” I respond and do my best to drown myself in the kiss, anything to get my mind off the pain that I’m felling right now. How could anyone enjoy bottoming?
“Can I move baby?” he asks.
“Um, okay,” I say and brace myself for more pain, but it never comes. He pulls out of me and pushes back in swiftly, unexpectantly hitting my prostate in the process.
“Onew!” I moan, “Right there honey. Do it again.”
Our bodies take a little time to get in sync with one another, but we quickly develop a steady, rhythmic tempo. Our breathing turns into panting and soft mewls turn into full on moans as we continue with our steady give and take motions. I knew that when we finally did it, it would be good, but I never expected that it would be amazing. The pleasure coursing through our bodies is slowly building in the pits of our stomachs. I can feel that my climax is just around the corner and he must be able to feel it too because his thrusts start to speed up. I wrap my legs around his waist, my head thrown back as a continuous moan leaves my mouth.
“I’m close honey. So close.”
“Me too. Wait for me baby.”
“I don’t know if I can.”
“Please just wait for me.”
“I’ll try,” both of our bodies that were once moving with ease, were now crashing and bumping sloppily against each other until neither one of us can take it anymore. I reach my climax first, the pent up pleasure crashing through me as I spill my seed all over our stomachs. He follows not too long after me and I didn’t think I would like it, but the feeling of his cum filling me up just adds to my orgasm. Our bodies continue to rock against one another while we ride out our orgasms. Our breathing start to even out slowly and he crashes our lips together. We start to lazily make out, our hands softly caressing our sweaty bodies.
“I really do love you Kim Jonghyun,” he says to me, propping himself up above me. He moves the matted down bangs out of my eyes kisses my forehead.
“I really love you too Lee Jinki,” I reply. We don’t bother to turn off the tv, the movie had ended somewhere in the middle of our love making, as we snuggle up on the couch. I push my body closer to his so I don’t fall off the couch in the middle of the night. Our eyelids are heavy from exhaustion. His breathing evens out and I know that he’s fell asleep first. I give his chest a kiss and close my eyes, allowing sleep to take over my body.
He was right, I had nothing to be worried about. This felt right. Being in his arms was definitely where I was supposed to be. I can’t believe I was worrying about not feeling guilty in the first place. I love Onew and he loves me. There’s nothing for us to be ashamed or feel bad about. Yeah, nothing at all.
*~*
I was having an amazing time with Key. We didn’t have a lot in common. He was really into fashion while I was more into sports, but we still got along amazingly well. We were still able to hold comfortable conversations with ease and little effort at all. We were almost complete opposites, but because of that we complimented each other so well. I was starting to fall for him the more I learnt about him.
“Whoa is that really the time?” I ask after checking my watch. We’ve been sitting in this both for almost four hours now and I feel like we just go here. He just giggles and shakes his head. I guess I shouldn’t have let him drink so much while we were here, but it was hard to keep count on the number of drinks he was having. I was too engrossed in our conversations to pay much attention at all.
“Is it past curfew for you Minho-ssi?” he jokes and dissolves into another fit of giggles. Yeah, he definitely had too much to drink. It’s a good think I was driving and not him.
“It’s nothing like that. I just promised my baby-sitter that I’d be by to pick up Yoogeun and his friends no later than midnight. It’s already past one in the morning.”
“Oh I see,” his face gets serious really fast as he stares at me, “You’re such a great appa Minho-ssi.”
“Thanks Key,” I start to scoot out of my side of the booth, grabbing both of our jackets in the process, “We better get going. They’ll be closing down the diner soon and I need to pick up Yoogeun and drop you off at your place as well.”
“Okay,” he nearly falls out of the booth, but I’m move fast enough to catch him before he can come remotely close to the floor. He’s giggling again and normally I’d be annoyed by it, but when he does it, it’s cute, “Thanks Hoho.”
“Hoho?” I laugh, helping him into his jacket and leading him out of the diner. I nod my thanks and good bye to the owners as we leave.
“Yes, Hoho. I’ve decided that that will be my pet name for you,” he taps my nose a couple times and we walk out into the cool night, “Because you’re so cute my little Hoho.”
“Okay, you’ve definitely had way too much to drink tonight. I should have cut you off once we left that party,” I continue to lead him to my car, helping him into it once we get there. I rush over to my side and hop into the car as well. I rub my hands together before turning the key in the ignition. It was kind of cold in my car. I reach over and turn on the heat before reaching over and grabbing the seat belt to pull across Key.
“Hoho,” he mumbles and touches my face. I look over at him and he smiles at me, “I like you.”
“I like you too Key,” I move back into my seat and buckle myself in then pull out of the parking space.
“No, Hoho, I don’t think you understand what I’m saying.”
“How do I get to your place?”
“Hoho,” he places his hand on top of mine, “I’m talking about something important and you’re asking for directions.”
“Well I need to know where I’m going.”
“That can wait.”
“Key,” I turn to look at him as I wait for our light to turn green, “We’ll talk about that next time. Right now I need to know how to get to your apartment.”
“Just get on the road that will lead you there.”
“I need to know which road it is and how to get to that road though.”
“Ugh, Hoho, you’re ruining the mood.”
“I’m just trying to drop you off at home.”
“Whatever,” he drops his hand from mine and starts to mess around with my radio. He finds a station he likes and turns up the volume, “OH I LOVE THIS SONG!”
“I guess you’ll be sleeping at my place tonight since you obviously aren’t in the right state to give directions,” I say to myself. I can see him dancing out of the corners of my eyes and again I find it to be extremely cute.
“Hoho, is it hot in here?” he starts to fan himself and I turn off the head, “Are you hot? I’m hot.”
“You can roll down the window if you want.”
“Thanks,” he quickly rolls down his window all the way. He rests his arms on the ledge and brings his head down to lay on them. I can see his eyes close as the night air cools him down. When we’re stopped at another red light, I find myself staring at him. He looks so beautiful with the way the moonlight hits his face at just the right angle. I’m tempted to lean over and steal a kiss before the light turns green, but I refrain myself from doing so.
I do my best to focus on the road in front of me and we’ve reached my building in no time. I help him out of the car and he starts to lean against me as we make our way to the entrance of the building. I look down and see that his eyelids are getting heavy. It looks like it won’t take him long to fall asleep once we get upstairs. I guess he can take my bed and I’ll just sleep with Yoogeun and the kids in his room. It takes a little longer than it should for us to get to my apartment, but I ended up having to piggy back him halfway through the lobby because he wasn’t really walking anymore.
“Hoho,” he mumbles into my ear and I punch the code into my door. I figured it would probably be best if I drop him off first and then go next door to get the kids since I’m sure they’re fast asleep, at least they should be.
“Yes Key?” I answer, flipping on a few lights as I walk towards my bedroom.
“Do you remember what I said earlier?”
“You said a lot of things earlier.”
“I know, but do you remember what I said when we got into your car just now?”
“Um,” I’m not sure how to respond. I didn’t want to get a drunken confession from him. I know that people say the truth comes out when alcohol is involved, but it’d rather he tell me he likes me when I know he’ll remember it the next day.
“I like you Hoho.”
“I like you too,” I respond.
“No no Hoho. You’re not understanding me.”
“You’re drunk and tired Key. We can talk about this in the morning,” I tell him. I carefully lay him down on my bed and make sure he’s comfortable, placing pillows under his head and around him. I place a light blanket over him and help him out of his coat, throwing it over a nearby chair.
“But I want you to know that I like you Hoho.”
“I know you like me, you just told me.”
“No no Ho ho. I like like you!” he almost shouts and I cover his mouth, placing my index finger over my own lips.
“Not so loud, it’s the middle of the night. I don’t want to wake the neighbors. Now you stay here and I’m going to go next door and get the kids okay?”
“Oh I’ll go with you,” he moves to get out of bed, but I stop him. I lift his legs and place them back under the covers and adjust the top have of his body so that it’s not in an awkward position.
“No, it’s okay. I won’t be long and if you’re still up when I get back, we’ll talk more okay? But for now, you just stay here and rest,” I’m not sure what caused me to do it, but I kissed him on the forehead before walking away. I guess I was used to doing that because I always did that after tucking Yoogeun in for the night.
He smiles up at me, “Are you sure? I can help you.”
“I’m sure. I’ll be right back,” I walk out of the room and go over to the apartment next door. I knock on it a few times, but no one comes to answer. I knock on it again and lean in closer to see if I can hear any movements coming from the other side of the door. Nothing. I glance down at my watch and see it’s almost two in the morning, I guess they were all asleep. I punch in the code, which I could have done in the first place, but I don’t like using it when I know that Youngwon is home.
I step into the apartment and can fainting hear the tv coming from the living room. I quietly make my way over to the room. I glance around the corner before stepping foot inside the room, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to just take the kids with me back to the apartment or not. Sometimes I just let Yoogeun stay at Youngwon’s when I was coming home late from work and he was asleep because he was a light sleeper so moving him would wake up instantly. It’s easier to just let him continue to sleep and coming back in the morning for him than waking him and struggling to get him back to sleep.
I should probably take them tonight though since there’s three of them and not just Yoogeun. I hold back my laugh when I take in the scene in front of me though. Yoogeun is knocked out on the floor, his butt sticking up in the air, hugging a toy truck close to him. Dori had fallen asleep on the armrest of the couch and his twin sister Jess was sprawled across Youngwon and another man, rather feminine, looking man I had never seen before. He must be the math tutor I’ve heard about, which means he must be Youngwon’s crush. I’ll have to talk to him about it later, see if things are getting better for him.
I move my way towards Yoogeun and carefully pick him up off the floor. He starts to whine a little but quickly stops once he’s in my arms. He wraps his arms and legs around me, resting his head on my shoulder. I debate if I should try to grab another kid before hiding back, but decide against it. Yoogeun was holding onto me so tightly that I wouldn’t be able to comfortably carry a second child with me. I quickly go back to my apartment and lay him down on his bed. I had already set up the futon on the floor in the beginning of the night, so I just had to go and grab the twins and bring them back.
I make my way back to Youngwon’s apartment and jot down a quick note to leave on the counter before going back to get Dori and Jess.
Didn’t want to wake you & your friend up
Took the kids back to my apartment.
Thanks again for watching them. I hope
they weren’t too much trouble. We’ll
have to talk later ;)
--Minho
I place his pay next to the note and go back to the living room. I decide it’s probably best to get Jess first since she’s sprawled out over the two boys. I really didn’t want to wake them up so I carefully lift her up off their laps and she doesn’t show a single sign that she was being bothered. Her brother is the same way as I peel him off the armrest. They cling to me as we walk back to my apartment. I lay them down on the futon and wrap their blankets around their tiny bodies. I take the matching stuffed elephants from their overnight bags, the ones that Inati told me they can’t sleep without, and place the green one next to Dori and the purple next to Jess. Then I walk over to get my son’s favorite Winnie the Pooh stuffed animal and place it next to him.
I walk back to my room to get a change of clothes and see that Key is fast asleep in my bed. I would love to just climb into bed next to him, but that would be crossing the line so much. I go over and pull the blanket further up his body and turn off the light on my bedside table, “Good night Key. I like like you too.” I close the door softly behind me and go to change my clothes in the guest bathroom before going back to Yoogeun’s room. I curl up with him on his small race car bed, letting sleep take over my body almost immediately.