Happy father's...day...

[gisele_c_b]

My mother called me yesterday morning to tell me that my father has collapsed and been rushed to hospital. He's such a strong man, never so much a serious cough in his life before. The doctors were talking like it's a heart attack or possibly even a stroke.

I don't know. I've never heard my mother sound so lost and broken as she did on the phone yesterday. My world just stopped. Everything I'm dealing with, Leo... everything, just suddenly faded into insignificance against the news of my father. I just want to go. Be with him in Brazil. The earliest flight I can get is Tuesday. I think I might drive myself insane before then with questions and regrets.

Why did I ever leave Brazil? Why didn't I go home for father's day? Does he know that I love him? Why didn't I tell him how much I admire him the last time we talked? Why didn't I say he's my hero? What if he dies? .... What if...

God I can't do this. Please don't ask me to.

I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much s/he means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell him/er how I feel

.............

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes