Angsty? Sure...but I had to.
i know that nobody reads this thing anymore, which kind of proves that I'm actually too chicken to a) tell the person this is about how i really feel and b) show these very angsty personal feelings to the world. So in an alternate plan...I'm showing them to you. Whoever you may be. If there is a you. And if there isnt a you then at the very least I'm able to get this out of my freakin' head and onto the page. Thank you writing.
I can't stop thinking about ______. I don't want to read into things that aren't there. I want to believe that he still wants [his girlfriend], that he's still in love with her. But then he looks at me, and something just feels...different. But this always happens at the beginning of the year when he helps me move in and then he goes back to her. I don't want to feel anything because he always go back to her. But even when I'm with other people, in the end it always (eventually) comes back to him. I wish, for once, I knew what he was feeling on the subject. But I'm too scared of losing him to ask...
I can't stop thinking about ______. I don't want to read into things that aren't there. I want to believe that he still wants [his girlfriend], that he's still in love with her. But then he looks at me, and something just feels...different. But this always happens at the beginning of the year when he helps me move in and then he goes back to her. I don't want to feel anything because he always go back to her. But even when I'm with other people, in the end it always (eventually) comes back to him. I wish, for once, I knew what he was feeling on the subject. But I'm too scared of losing him to ask...