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optimism just went out the window. i just wish he'd fucking be honest with me. because i'm going to have a nervous breakdown pretty soon.
also, last night. almost got into a fight with these two douchebags who were saying shit to my roommate matt. for no reason. it was really bad, i had some choice words with the one guy. he's probably never even seen me before in his whole life, yet he told me he was better than me. wow. gotta love those egos. how do people like that have friends?
i spent two hours at the library today. because i woke up at 1:15 and everyone was already at the bar. cool, thanks. doug offered to come back and pick me up but seriously fuck that. it would've been nice to get an invite to begin with. so then they finally get home from the bar and running errands, and i'm already in a bad mood. but i'm thinking, ok, it's a nice day outside, we can just drink and relax and have a good time for once. but, as usual, doug is not in this house for more than five minutes before "he's so tired" and needs a nap. he can never hang out with me anymore because he is always tired.
guess what? i'm tired, too. of constantly getting the run around. "oh, i love you." "oh, but only as a friend." "oh, let's hang out." "oh, i can't, i'm too tired." as sad as it makes me, i'm actually looking forward to him moving. and as hard as it is for me to admit, maybe i just need to cut him out of my life once and for all.