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The other day I had an idea for an Angel/Wesley story. And I've never really written Angel/Wesley, even though I love the idea of them as a couple and some of my favorite fics have featured that pairing. So I keep thinking about this idea, fleshing it out in my head, adding on, imagining snippets of dialogue, plotting everything. I think it would end up Angel/Wesley/Spike by the end. I'm inventing new rules of the universe that were never addressed in canon but would be canon-compliant if I wrote the story. It's a very long, very involved plot which would also have several sex scenes. I even have a title (and some chapter titles). And I can't stop thinking about it.
This hasn't happened to me in so long. Usually when I have an idea for a story, I just write it and move on with my life. But because this is fanfic, I'm not allowing myself to do it. And I can't make it into original fiction because the plot depends on an evil law firm being run by an ensouled vampire! (Side note: I think if fanfiction is really good, it can't be made original. It has to be those characters. Because if they could be anyone, then what even makes it fanfic in the first place?)
Anyway, I'm really frustrated. Because I can't stop thinking about it but I also can't let myself start a project that big while I'm in the middle of everything else. So I'm working some of the imagined dialogue from the phantom fic into the fic I actually AM allowing myself to finish writing, and no one will know that it was originally supposed to go in an epic Angel/Wesley story that never happened. Except me. And every time I see it, I will be a little bit sad.
This hasn't happened to me in so long. Usually when I have an idea for a story, I just write it and move on with my life. But because this is fanfic, I'm not allowing myself to do it. And I can't make it into original fiction because the plot depends on an evil law firm being run by an ensouled vampire! (Side note: I think if fanfiction is really good, it can't be made original. It has to be those characters. Because if they could be anyone, then what even makes it fanfic in the first place?)
Anyway, I'm really frustrated. Because I can't stop thinking about it but I also can't let myself start a project that big while I'm in the middle of everything else. So I'm working some of the imagined dialogue from the phantom fic into the fic I actually AM allowing myself to finish writing, and no one will know that it was originally supposed to go in an epic Angel/Wesley story that never happened. Except me. And every time I see it, I will be a little bit sad.