Up and down, up and down
It's how my moods keep shifting. I'm happy and then I get depressed. Then I trend back towards happy and it starts again. I just want a constant. I want certainty. But I don't have that now, can't have that now. Because it's not up to me anymore. I know most of the time I seem laid back and don't care and go with the flow, but really, I hate not having control. I need control in this and I don't have it and it's driving me insane. Because what happens is out of my control and I hate it.