It's how my moods keep shifting. I'm happy and then I get depressed. Then I trend back towards happy and it starts again. I just want a constant. I want certainty. But I don't have that now, can't have that now. Because it's not up to me anymore. I know most of the time I seem laid back and don't care and go with the flow, but really, I hate not ( Read more... )

Part of me hates how I look all calm on the outside, but on the inside, I'm torn apart. I physically feel sick right now. My stomach has not stopped churning all day. I feel so awful. And I'm so paranoid that someone is trying to get in. I'm watching my aunt's dogs in her house right now and every time something creaks I freak out. I've watched ( Read more... )

I really hate job searching. I mean hate it. I try and try and it seems like I get nowhere. And people wonder why I get down on myself and frustrated. And then they wonder why I get snippy with them for telling me to "cheer up" and to get back out there. No, it fucking hurts when I get let down on the search so I'm allowed to be sad and miserable ( Read more... )

Holy jesus I've been away for some time. I blame tumblr. I have spent so much time on there. That and LJ was down for a while when I kept trying to get on. Also, I've been on a kandi making spree lately. So many things to make! I made a bunch of bracelets, just finished a cuff for my friend Keri, and made a handflower and a bowtie all out of kandi ( Read more... )

You finally passed the gay marriage bill. Thank you. It was about damn time you did and I am so happy that it has finally happened.

I hate when I am told what to do. I hate when plans are made for me instead of actually asking me. I hate that when I say "maybe" it's taken as a "yes ( Read more... )

I'll be lucky if I make it through the next weekend without having an aneurism.

I've cooled down a bit now. I still think that switching our cable company was utterly useless and stupid, but I've calmed down a bit. Until tomorrow at least when I have to fight with the stupid thing and growl at how nothing works the way it should. Seriously, if it ain't broke, don't fix it.

I really do think that I'm just stressed out right now. ( Read more... )

So the top of LJ just freaked me out a bit cause it changed xD Whoops! I thought it had logged me out again for no reason, but nope! Just change the layout!

Also, I don't understand how some people are so dumb!! Buhhh! God I feel so bad that my boy has to put up with this ignorant idiot.

EDIT: THIS JUST IN!! Apparently the idiot has kittens that she ( Read more... )

I really should not be such an empath. My moods fluctuate too much based on how other people feel. I hate this bitter taste in my mouth. I end up feeling mad for no reason other than someone else being in a foul mood.

I really hope I didn't just stick my foot in mouth. :x