Rampant emotions!
I'm not going into any details from last night, but paranoia can go fuck off and die. I feel loads better today, I just need it to stay this way.
I miss my boy, so so so much. It sucks being an hour apart and working all the time, him and I, that we can't meet up as often as we'd like. It's why we're looking forward to getting a house together with friends. We can be together with each other and with friends. It'll mean more gaming and we can all split rent and bills and duties that we need to do. I know that there's still parts of me that need to grow up and take more responsibility, and I think when we finally move in a house, I will. I know I shirked a lot of duties at the apartment and that we had a lot of small fights over it, but I swear that I will not do that again. Hell, I'm already planning on taking grocery shopping duty as long as people pay me for it. I don't mind shopping and as long as I have a list of what I need to get people and get paid for the things that aren't mine, then I'm fine with it. I will always pay for the milk though, cause I go through it so fast. I really, really want this house idea to go through. I think it'd be awesome and we'd all have so much fun.
In other news, I completely blame my friend Megan for showing me this: toughmudder.com/events/new-england/mount-snow-course-map-2011/ She's planning on training and entering it. Pretty much, she's trying to drag me along with her to do this. I have to admit, the more I read about it, the more I kind of want to do it. I'd have to start training pretty much now to be ready for the competition in May. It's in VT, which is exciting cause I've never been there. So maybe I will end up doing this. I showed it to Jared and of course he got excited, mostly for the fire walking at the end. Typical Jared; he loves fire. That's my boyfriend; my geeking, fire-loving, amazing boyfriend. Of course I'm going to worry about us getting hurt cause the course is huge and requires so much, but it gives me a right to fuss over him if he gets hurt. The only thing I really have to worry about is the entry fee. It's a bit pricey, but I guess it's expected. They say the whole course takes about 2.5 hrs to complete. toughmudder.com/events/new-england/ This is the actual site that explains everything. After reading it over, I got real excited. As much as I am so un-motivated to work out, I really kind of want to do this. I'd feel so accomplished and awesome for participating in something this bad-ass.
Now I'm just going to relax before I have to work tonight. Hopefully I don't pass out at work because I'm tired.
I miss my boy, so so so much. It sucks being an hour apart and working all the time, him and I, that we can't meet up as often as we'd like. It's why we're looking forward to getting a house together with friends. We can be together with each other and with friends. It'll mean more gaming and we can all split rent and bills and duties that we need to do. I know that there's still parts of me that need to grow up and take more responsibility, and I think when we finally move in a house, I will. I know I shirked a lot of duties at the apartment and that we had a lot of small fights over it, but I swear that I will not do that again. Hell, I'm already planning on taking grocery shopping duty as long as people pay me for it. I don't mind shopping and as long as I have a list of what I need to get people and get paid for the things that aren't mine, then I'm fine with it. I will always pay for the milk though, cause I go through it so fast. I really, really want this house idea to go through. I think it'd be awesome and we'd all have so much fun.
In other news, I completely blame my friend Megan for showing me this: toughmudder.com/events/new-england/mount-snow-course-map-2011/ She's planning on training and entering it. Pretty much, she's trying to drag me along with her to do this. I have to admit, the more I read about it, the more I kind of want to do it. I'd have to start training pretty much now to be ready for the competition in May. It's in VT, which is exciting cause I've never been there. So maybe I will end up doing this. I showed it to Jared and of course he got excited, mostly for the fire walking at the end. Typical Jared; he loves fire. That's my boyfriend; my geeking, fire-loving, amazing boyfriend. Of course I'm going to worry about us getting hurt cause the course is huge and requires so much, but it gives me a right to fuss over him if he gets hurt. The only thing I really have to worry about is the entry fee. It's a bit pricey, but I guess it's expected. They say the whole course takes about 2.5 hrs to complete. toughmudder.com/events/new-england/ This is the actual site that explains everything. After reading it over, I got real excited. As much as I am so un-motivated to work out, I really kind of want to do this. I'd feel so accomplished and awesome for participating in something this bad-ass.
Now I'm just going to relax before I have to work tonight. Hopefully I don't pass out at work because I'm tired.