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[girlmadden]

maybe i'll start writing again.

the pain is abated for a moment and i wonder
when it comes back
if i'll let drops ruin too much time
spent looking in the mirror
to make this face presentable
for who?

i could smoke one less cigarette
but instead i'll smoke two more
thinking "maybe i'll start writing again"
before i realize that i never stopped

every new line has been about you
now a heavy mind wonders
a weary body wanders
and i'm right (again)
with you sleeping on the left

(i wish i could be wrong).