1 week today
I have woken up abstinent for 7 days in a row.
It's a beautiful gift. I have started my step work and am currently writing my step 4. What I have found is that I am not as resentful as I once was and this I think is a good thing but obviously I also want to do it right.
Life seems uncomplicated and simple right now and I feel happy. Obviously Sir plays a part in this as he gives me acceptance and I needed that.
He gives me love and cherishes me but he also accepts me sexually, emotionally and physically and I accept him in totality.
Everyone needs that in their lives. My friend Jo accepts me and so does Hunter. I guess having 3 people in your lives who accept you is good. People who no matter what you say or what you do will keep you in their lives because they love you and I feel the same about them.
Wendy doesn't accept me. I have to get over it otherwise....where is she???
She abandoned me for someone else. I reached out but she isn't interested.
She never truly accepted me. That is the truth.
So I have to move on but I miss her. Even if she never really cared.
But.....I will be abstinent today.
It's a beautiful gift. I have started my step work and am currently writing my step 4. What I have found is that I am not as resentful as I once was and this I think is a good thing but obviously I also want to do it right.
Life seems uncomplicated and simple right now and I feel happy. Obviously Sir plays a part in this as he gives me acceptance and I needed that.
He gives me love and cherishes me but he also accepts me sexually, emotionally and physically and I accept him in totality.
Everyone needs that in their lives. My friend Jo accepts me and so does Hunter. I guess having 3 people in your lives who accept you is good. People who no matter what you say or what you do will keep you in their lives because they love you and I feel the same about them.
Wendy doesn't accept me. I have to get over it otherwise....where is she???
She abandoned me for someone else. I reached out but she isn't interested.
She never truly accepted me. That is the truth.
So I have to move on but I miss her. Even if she never really cared.
But.....I will be abstinent today.