Confused
My emotions swirling around my head, there are so many it is starting to hurt. I am grinding my teeth to the gum because I can't speak. I feel angry, sad, stupid, and full of love. Shawn called me and I was talking about listening to Frank Sinatra when he broke down in tears. His grandma slipped into a coma that night while he was with her and while he was telling me I just went blank. I had no idea how to respond or what to say so I froze and said nothing. Finally I apologized for my silence and acknowledged that I was speechless. He sounded awful so I suggested I go and let him grieve and sleep. When I hung up I started crying uncontrollably. I had never heard or seen Shawn cry, he always seems the stronger one and this killed me because I love him yet I can do nothing for him. Also I got a little frustrated he hadnt called me in two days so I left him a smart ass message on his phone which he will probably get tomorrow and be upset. I just wish I could postpone my schedule and life and go and be with him. That my classes would stop and continue when I got back. But I'm hoping my roommate will be up for a road trip this weekend and if not maybe my friend Cyndie. I just really want to see him.......