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An update, full of ramble and babble. I went to my first city audition on Tuesday; it was thrilling. I saw some faces and met some wonderful people. I decided to hit up CM's Tommy auditions last minute and got a callback, yay. I don't think I'll get anything but that's okay. Work bores me. I desperately want to get my hands onto a Canon Rebel XTi and start shooting. But I don't have the money for it. I want a new car... I hate driving around in my father's mini-van. I feel like a soccer mom. Johnny Gallagher's voice makes me so incredibly sappy. Add me onto the list along with everyone else, their mother and their dog of who's going to the Spring Awakening open call at the end of this month. I don't understand why boys choose to change their minds... or not call or show up when they're supposed to. I don't know why they decide to just stop talking to you. What is up with that? I may just change my freaking mind and go back to girls while I'm at it. I forget what it was like to be in love. Also, for the fact that I fell in love with a boy who left me for the dick. I wish some people had confidence, I wish some could get over their fears. I wish I had more money in my pocket. Or sometimes I wish you'd call and tell me you made the biggest mistake of your life. Actually, I wish a few people would do that. I'm in this mellow mood right now, and it's nice. But I'm yearning for my life to start up again. It feels like it's stuck on the pause button of a movie. And I wish the show of Miss Saigon never ended. Let me tell you, I was in love with that show and that cast. Unfortunately, beautiful things like that do come to an end. But there will be more, and that is what I have to remind myself.