T
That long ago I started taking hormones, and today I am stopping.....
I have a new counter on my profile.
It took me a while to reach this decision but after seeing doctor and being able to make informed decision then I know that this is the right thing to do. I am stopping for a couple reasons, so I can see how I feel, and also, to bank sperm, which I never got to do. And I don't know, if it will work, but there is only one way to know........
no matter what angle I look at this from I know this is the best thing for me to do right now, but I'm still scared about it, especially because lately I felt more secure in my identity as female. but if that's the truth then once I've banked I'll go back on E, wont I.
Time will tell
And I have to remind myself that it's not unheard of for trans people to live in their preferred gender without hormones. My doctor told me she's known of some patients who have done that. When I've looked at old photos of me it is pretty clear to me that if I knew all I knew now I could pass just as well. I really didn't look too different
I'm terrified, but when I stop and think I see there's nothing to be scared of. If I decide to go back on E then this is a setback surely but PATIENCE will counter that. and while T is taking hold again I'll probably be in my third puberty so-to-speak but I just need to keep a level head and control myself and I can do it. I've gone through puberty twice already...... I'm starting to get the hang of it :oP
Wish me luck........
Kat