May 02, 2012 11:31
So I guess I'm supposed to be all better now, but it sure as fuck doesn't feel like it. I dunno if they missed some of the magic up there or what they must've since when do I it's like there's two of me. Been that way since they let me out of the damn Spire.
Two of me, sharing the same head, and they don't get along much when it comes to what to do about this business with Nor. Want to run but I can't quite bring myself to do it. The guy's been acting like things are pretty much normal, but
Left a note to myself in this thing. Should just rip it out.
Instead I keep staring at it like it'll tell me what to do about this. If I can't get my head straight I should leave. Sure things seem pretty normal now but I have a hard time believing it's not gonna start ripping him up if I keep hanging around and can't reciprocate 'cause you don't tell someone you love'em without expecting something
I keep having these flashes of being with Tirnas, and that sure as fuck isn't helping anything. Sets my teeth on edge every damn time. I was over this. I was fine.
If I ever run into Tirnas or Ryn again there are going to be so many stabbings. The constructs can drag me off to prison, I don't care. If I'm going down for murder at least it'll be worth it.
Nobody's ever gonna mess with my head again, I'm gonna make sure of that. I mean, I guess this whole L-word thing is driving me a little nuts right now but it's not Nor's fault. At least he's honest.
Fuck it. Gonna get drunk off my ass and tinker with a gun, no more thinking today.
the cagiest of rogues,
let's do the crazy dance,
make up your mind dammit,
more booze that'll fix it,
not sure if want,
the world is full of dumb,
dramuhs