I can't be everyone's everything. In fact, I can hardly be my own anything right now.

This is not anger. It is disappointment. It is the kind of hurt that I can feel like a weight crushing my chest.

All the love in the world will not make you love me. I loved you because you were the first person I ever thought cared that much about me.

Now, you don't care at all, it seems. You've mistaken being cold and uncaring for being

My chest hurts I'm so angry. I don't even know if I'm worth enough to say sorry to.

Wow. Too much time in the car in the past couple days. Went down to Hillsdale on Saturday, but decided to stop in Grand Rapids and look at apartments for me. I found one, which made it worth it. It's a one bedroom apartment in a 150-year-old mansion in the Heritage area. It's near Cherry and College, if anyone wants to look it up. $490/month ( Read more... )

Fireworks make me sad and happy at the same time - usually. They make me happy because I love to watch them, but they make me sad because I'm 9 times out of 10 not with the person I want to be with when I'm watching them.

You will understand, then, how unhappy I was that last night's fireworks could not be seen. At all. The fog was horrible. We went ( Read more... )

Java Monster is pretty good...

...but it's no substitute for Adderall.

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I wish I were a lucky person, but I know that no matter how much money I spent on lotto tickets I would never win a goddamn thing. In fact, the most I've ever won doing that covered the cost of the ticket and only that ticket ( Read more... )

I am trying to stay happy. I am trying to get up when I fall down, dust myself off and continue to deal. I am trying to take a deep breath and realize that things are going to be alright. I am trying to stay sane ( Read more... )

I don't know how to be someone's everything.