whats up?
Well its been a long and stressful week so far. Sunday night like an idiot i took alicia and emily out again we ended out at walmart. I ran into Crystals mom and dad there and me and mom did a quick catch up of whats been goin on wiht each other. After i was done talkin wiht them me emily and alicia left and went to tcby for ice cream. On the way i was bein an idiot and ticklin alicia while driving. It ended up she gbrabbed my hand and just held it like we were holding hands and thats how it was all the way to tcby. Im thinkin to myself here waiut a minute shes sittin here holdin my hand when she says she loves justin. Then when we left i asked them if they wanted me to leace cause they both seemed tired. Well Alicia just scream out NO!!!!! Then gave the look that she didnt mean to say that outloud. Well i went back to emilys with them and watched some of Mrs. Doubtfire then i decided it was time to head on home. When i got home i talked to Alicia online cause i wanted to know what was goin on between us if anything. Well she basicly said that i was just an outlet for her wild side cuase she hadnt had fun in ahwile. I told her well gee thanks i feel like just a toy. Well she got mad and left but then came back and we apologized to each other. Well then she tells me she wants to go out and get drunk with me. It's like she jsut said she loves jsutin but she wnats to go out and get drunk wiht me. WEll i told her that if anything happens i have no control over my actions when im drunk and im sorry if anything happens and she just siad ok. Sometimes i dont understand whats goin on in her head.