hole to hell.
what goes down must come up? why can't it be like that. i really want this last job that i applied for. all my problems would be gone if i was hired and all because i have blond hair and big boobs. how cool would that be? i could do the whole "i am cute, let me serve you drinks and seat you at your table and get paid big bucks for it" sounds pretty good for me, and if not permanent at least until i find somethign else. and plus i get money to buy clothes. thats fucking awesome. too cool. i am just hoping for that job or a call back on another because somthing needs to happen and happen fast. i need to not be broke anymore. i need a job. badly. no more shittiness. i am at rock bottom, and hopefully the only way to go is up, if not i better get a fucking shovel and start digging to hell, because that is exactly where i am headed.