I'm a mess.

[gilraenfelagund]

I don't know if it's hormones or what, but I'm a big, fat mess lately. I freak out about the TINIEST things...and tears often well up for no good reason. For instance, I didn't know Derek worked today, so I was thinking we'd have lunch like we usually do when he's not working. Long story short, he was at work, didn't show up for lunch, didn't call/

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[angelfallentear]

you're always a mess! lol

j/k

It's more than likely a combination of hormones, change of environment (and the subsequent getting used to of that environment) and a change of routine too. You'll be fine once you find the groove again. Change isn't fun, you'll survive it and be better for it:)

gah I can't wait for next friday!

[angelfallentear]

I think I'm having a nervous breakdown. Yeah, that fits.

*Twitch*

Sucks, I haven't seen Derek for like...two days. We sleep in the same bed! So, I guess TECHNICALLY, I've seen him...I just haven't seen him awake...and I won't see him today, because he works til 8, and then he's going to go practice this dumb song his work is having him play...*sigh*...feels like I'm single again, only in a different house.

[gilraenfelagund]

Errr...that was me...I dunno why I wasn't logged in. Bah, I blame the fact that I should still be asleep at this ungodly hour...

[angelfallentear]

fair enough.

you need to tell him that you feel like you're single again and that he needs to make some time for y'alls relationship. It's hard, especially with the new job and the holiday season...but he needs to do it b/c it's hurting your relationship otherwise.

[gilraenfelagund]

Ehhh...I feel bad though, because lately all I've been doing is complain...and no one wants to be with THAT all the time.
The problem is, neither of us can really help what's going on. His works demands his time during a certain part of the day, and my work demands my time during the other part of the day. I talked to him today, right before he went into work, and the tiredness in his voice made me feel awful. He's working hard to get this other job so he can get more money so we can ultimately get our own place together, and all I do is bitch and moan.
Times like this make me think I'm a truly horrible girlfriend...
BUT...I made an "appointment" with him for tomorrow. I told him that he's mine tomorrow, after he gets out of work. He's not allowed to go "jam" with Ryan, or hit the bars with any of his other friends...he has to spend the rest of the night with his boring girlfriend, Christmas shopping. I'm sure he was thrilled.

[angelfallentear]

don't call it an appointment...call it a date. You're going out together...if any shopping gets done GREAT...if not..no biggie b/c you're spending time together.

We're so leaving Ste at the house and going somewhere to chillax.lol