I'm a mess.
I don't know if it's hormones or what, but I'm a big, fat mess lately. I freak out about the TINIEST things...and tears often well up for no good reason. For instance, I didn't know Derek worked today, so I was thinking we'd have lunch like we usually do when he's not working. Long story short, he was at work, didn't show up for lunch, didn't call/text me or anything...and I completely freaked. Insane-o style. Called him a billion times (well, okay, maybe four or five) then I texted him in a horribly bitchy manner. Ugh, I disgust myself. Then the poor guy manages to text me a "You DO know I'm at work, right?"
Ugh.
And then I've taken to crying about nothing. Like...a song comes on, and I start bawling. Or I read something...or someone on TV looks at another person in a loving way. Haha, it's really kind of funny...
But despite all this, I'm really better than I was the last time I wrote. The kind of stuff I was going through in that post was...soul-twisting. But the stuff I'm going through right now...seems to be pretty "surface pain" related.
Anyway, I'm done. The little spurt I usually have when I write in this thing is long gone...
Ugh.
And then I've taken to crying about nothing. Like...a song comes on, and I start bawling. Or I read something...or someone on TV looks at another person in a loving way. Haha, it's really kind of funny...
But despite all this, I'm really better than I was the last time I wrote. The kind of stuff I was going through in that post was...soul-twisting. But the stuff I'm going through right now...seems to be pretty "surface pain" related.
Anyway, I'm done. The little spurt I usually have when I write in this thing is long gone...