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Why do some people approach things the way they do.
Why must you be contrary just for the sake of being contrary.
I went to the bar last night. i was having a bad day, and so i took the bus, and i got very drunk because i didnt have to drive. and it was a very good night in that respect.
I saw a few people i knew, but no one i really wanted to see.
Mike messages me tonight and the way he approaches things atomaticslly gives way to drama. "IS there any specific reason why you ignored me at the bar last night?" instead of "hey i saw you at edge, and i called your name and you walked right by twice". I honestly didnt see him. If i had, it would have brightened up my night. I didnt ignore him on purpose, i would have no reason to.
but why must everything that a gay person says be an accusation. basically asserting the dominant position that they must take in everyones lives. sometimes there is other stuff going on. Sometimes you need to actually go up to a person and say hello instead of making them come to you.
Yesterday was my moms birthday. it starts a week of bad stuff. My dads birthday in 4 days, and the anniversary of both my uncle and my grandfathers deaths. its just a tough week, and i enjoyed coming out with dave, and getting shit faced, i met a new person. it was good. a good end to a bad night, and now i feel bad for not hearing mike when he said hello, and for walking by him twice but had he just reached out or came over then i would have seen.
Im done going to everyone every time. Sometimes its nice for people to come to me. sometimes im too weak, not strong enough, or just plain dont have enough energy to come to them. everyone has those times.
Why must you be contrary just for the sake of being contrary.
I went to the bar last night. i was having a bad day, and so i took the bus, and i got very drunk because i didnt have to drive. and it was a very good night in that respect.
I saw a few people i knew, but no one i really wanted to see.
Mike messages me tonight and the way he approaches things atomaticslly gives way to drama. "IS there any specific reason why you ignored me at the bar last night?" instead of "hey i saw you at edge, and i called your name and you walked right by twice". I honestly didnt see him. If i had, it would have brightened up my night. I didnt ignore him on purpose, i would have no reason to.
but why must everything that a gay person says be an accusation. basically asserting the dominant position that they must take in everyones lives. sometimes there is other stuff going on. Sometimes you need to actually go up to a person and say hello instead of making them come to you.
Yesterday was my moms birthday. it starts a week of bad stuff. My dads birthday in 4 days, and the anniversary of both my uncle and my grandfathers deaths. its just a tough week, and i enjoyed coming out with dave, and getting shit faced, i met a new person. it was good. a good end to a bad night, and now i feel bad for not hearing mike when he said hello, and for walking by him twice but had he just reached out or came over then i would have seen.
Im done going to everyone every time. Sometimes its nice for people to come to me. sometimes im too weak, not strong enough, or just plain dont have enough energy to come to them. everyone has those times.