Dead for me TTxTT
Title: Farewell..
Rating: PG/Angst
Couple: Kyuwook word count: 456
Summary: How you stopped me from cutting my life.. as you told me to be strong.. stronger than ever be..
A/N: My fail day~~ saddest day ever.. It's been a long time since I cried this hard for someone that I'll never met again.. I love you~~ and I'm sorry that I can't meet you even once.. for the last time.. Ps: this just a short drabble.. lots of grammar mistakes.. This just how I describe my feelings now.. TTxTT
*cries hard*
Do you know that only "dead" that can part us??
Do you know that if you're dead~~ I'll be dead too??
Do you know that "dead" was nothing against our love??
That was all things that I want to say to him before he left..
Left for eternally as I, this coward and useless man couldn't tell this to him, even once..
I was alone here, demanded for nothing as I sat on my back against the wall.. The cold white wall that has the same color as my shirt.. My shirt for attending his funeral..
People might asked me why I didn't wear black.. Why I wore white for him.. why I didn't stay at his side..
We're unseparateable as we were together since little.. We never left each other side as we always sticking our hands together, ran on the green field, embraced each other body and.. we shared our kiss too..
We even shared our bed together, no matter how old we're and where we belong.. We always together.. that's it..
We love each other, so we won't be parted..
I took my wrist and looked at it.. Seems I need to end it soon, so I can go to your place, hyung-ah~~
I smiled in peace as I used the other hand to grab the sharp silhouette that will fit so well in my pale skin.. Yeah.. This time, I won't be a coward anymore.. No time to wait anymore, no tears to spill anymore..
I'll be by your side, wookie-ah~~
But the wind blew hard, disturbing me from my last moment here..
Then you appeared in front of me..
With smile, you held my face, embraced me in your arms..
You didn't say anything.. Just a smile and nods..
Nods that showed me how you miss me..
Nods that told me that you didn't want me to follow you..
Nods that told me to be strong.. stronger than ever be..
Nods that told me that I'm not alone..
Then I wondered.. what if I can hear your voice once again..
What if you said "I love you"..
Will I can hold myself like this??
Hold myself from running to your side..
Hold myself and be brave to cut my life..
What if you didn't appear in my life since the start..
what if I never know you, my Kim Ryeowook-ah~~
So, I decided..
No matter how hurt my life would be..
As long as you stayed in my heart, I'll be strong and go on..
"So rest yourself well, wookie-ah~~ I'll be fine with you here" I held my chest and waved my hands...
"Wait for me there, we'll meet again.. For sure.."
Then I passed out my mind.. Having myself rest in smile..
Cheap Hotel
*sigh* how could this day coming so fast~~ TT^TT