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The picture says it all. I'm not really sure what is going on right now. So many emotions - confusion, hopelessness, fear, bitter anger, frustration. I'm scared to be living here. I guess we can only hope for the best. It's just hard to do that when the man who is running our country cannot even speak colloquially without sounding mildly autistic.
On a lighter note, my first voting experience was truly hardcore. I waited in line for over four hours with taylor and the two guys in front of us who had a 2 liter sunny D bottle full of beer. They actually took turns to go leave and get more while we were on line too. One of them was so drunk by the time we got to the booths that I was scared he might actually vote for Bush. I also feasted and was served like a princess while I waited there, and was entertained with live music and speeches from Congressmen! A couple of bands came in, and when we were inside the church, an organ player played scary music that sounded like it was coming from inside of my head. It was definitely an experience that I'll always remember.
Also, lots of funny things have been happening to me lately. Among them: realizing that there is a gay ghost named Tucker that haunts mine and taylor's room, having an altar-ego named Jumbaliah who kicks the shit out of anyone who messes with her, almost winning a hundred dollars in a halloween contest when I dressed up as Marylin Monroe (how is that costume worthy of 100 bucks? I thought it was pretty unoriginal), getting a halloween card from my dad in which he wrote "make sure you don't get tricked and get ALL the treats!" (I'm pretty sure that's a sexual reference). There are so many more too... I just wanna keep you on the edge of your seat and maintain some mystery.
Also, I've been having these amazing 6 hour conversations with different people all over the place and getting no work done at all. And it just feels wonderful. And I've been learning soo much about myself. I have all these hangups and insecurities in certain situations that I'm definitely gonna work on getting rid of. I'm also learning that sometimes you just have to let things, and people, go. No matter how hard it is. What's meant to be will be. Life is short, and if people hurt you, they're not worth your time or effort no matter how attached to them you become. So I'm starting a new page in my life -- no more fatalistic relationships with people.
Sunshine Scouts has been going awesomely. It's really starting to feel more and more like a family, and the scenes are becoming so much better because we all have no real boundaries anymore. Today Ben and Sarah did a scene that entailed Ben's head being stuck in Sarah's vagina. Ben: "Oh!! It looks like the movie 'Look who's talking' up here.. I think I see Bruce Willis." Hahaha...don't ask me how they did it. I mean, you can ask, but it will be hard to answer. I feel like I'm improving...although I definitely still feel a loooot worse than most of the people in the group. I guess that's natural... I'm still a rookie. Our second show is this saturday!! Wish me luck.
HellaDeck!, this musical that I'm in this semester, is also going amazingly. I am soooo psyched for it. We have such a large budget and so much talent and passion involved in it. It's honestly going to be the best musical Oberlin has ever seen. There's also lots of talk about it performing in musical theater festivals this summer NYC - which would kick so much ass. The part has been kind of challenging for me. Lisa is an extreme feminist, and a stripper. While she's a lot like me in many ways, she's also a complete caricature of a person, and it's just hard to play a character that's so sexual and over the top without being a little insecure about it. It's also hard when you're studying real, straight, acting and not corny musical-style acting.
Oh, also... like last week I felt so unfunny. I felt like I would talk to people and I'd lost that spark. And this week I have been having the most priceless conversations with people, and it has totally restored my faith in my ability to be hilarious. OH! I also wrote another song. Well, lyrics to a song. And I actually really like them. They're definitely my best lyrics yet. Every line is a play on words...using lots of homonyms. I hope I can find a melody that matches.
Life is good. Hopefully Bush won't fuck it up too much.
Alright, gangstas. Gotta go do shitloads of work and go to sleep.
*Word of the day*: "hamter" (..no, that's not a typo...it's just not a real word.. it's my word. it's my world.)
Kissies, M