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I am losing it! I am absolutly losing it. I have been doing all the things people tell me. I've been keeping busy, working on projects, writing him everyday.... it just doesnt work!!!! I can't stop crying and I just feel dead all the time. I try to keep my head up, and when ever anyone asks me how i'm holding up I tell them fine, or ok. BUT I"M NOT FINE!!!! I"M NOT OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hurt all over and all i want is to hear him tell me it'll all be ok. It has only been 2 weeks and it feels like a lifetime. I feel like today will never end. ITS ONLY 8!!!!! The minutes literally feel like hours. I was boiling fucking water today and I swear it took 3 hours. MAKE TIME GO FASTER!!!!!!! FUCK YOU FATHER TIME!!!!!
it wasn't suppose to hurt this bad...