crying on his laptop
Last night was great. Or this morning... something like that. I had the BEST dream in the world. I dreamed that for some reason they let him come home for church. There he was parked outside my house in his black ford ranger. I see him and run out. He spins me around and kisses me. It was just like his real kisses. His big lips were so warm. It was like he was really here, he kept just hugging me and kissing me and telling me he loves me... I didnt want to wake up.
I was suppose to hear from him today. He said I should be able to get one phone call a week, usually on weekends. I have been counting down the days, looking online for the time he would probably call... and he didnt. I know he would of called if he could of. It was such a huge let down. I had written out a list of everything I wanted to tell him, cause I knew I would forget. It is just so frustrating. I want to make sure he is getting my letters. Wanted to know if he put San Angelo on his dream sheet. If he gets that base then we get to be together in January... not June. I wanted to tell him I love him and I miss him. I wanted to hear him tell me that he misses me too. I want to hear him tell me that he loves me and it will all be ok.
He has always been that person to me, the one to tell me its all ok. Since the day I met him he took care of me. I just feel so lost without him. I knew this was going to be hard. Everyone told me so... but I didnt know it would be this hard. he has only been gone 12 days... but it feels like forever. My whole heart and soul is in lackland... i'm not myself right now.
Please pray for him and me.
I was suppose to hear from him today. He said I should be able to get one phone call a week, usually on weekends. I have been counting down the days, looking online for the time he would probably call... and he didnt. I know he would of called if he could of. It was such a huge let down. I had written out a list of everything I wanted to tell him, cause I knew I would forget. It is just so frustrating. I want to make sure he is getting my letters. Wanted to know if he put San Angelo on his dream sheet. If he gets that base then we get to be together in January... not June. I wanted to tell him I love him and I miss him. I wanted to hear him tell me that he misses me too. I want to hear him tell me that he loves me and it will all be ok.
He has always been that person to me, the one to tell me its all ok. Since the day I met him he took care of me. I just feel so lost without him. I knew this was going to be hard. Everyone told me so... but I didnt know it would be this hard. he has only been gone 12 days... but it feels like forever. My whole heart and soul is in lackland... i'm not myself right now.
Please pray for him and me.