ehh
so lately, things havent really changed...no one really does anything around here, and theres nothing really to do anyway...the summer has been so pathetic, that after wanting to leave school, and continuously praying for the summer to come, we end up sitting in the PV parking lot each and every night anyway- waiting for someone to come in, or to hit with jelly donuts....
so tonite was especially shitty....i worked until 10, which blew, like always....then i headed over to chris's to pick him up and think of something to do...we went to PV, and to no ones suprise, we find angelo, matt timmerman, and mike enright and jerry show up later...some other people were there too, but they do not compare and do not hold any relevance to the PV parking lot regulars...some cops came to run on the track, but who gives a shit...fucking bastards....
so after sitting around in the parking lot, with no intentions of doing anything, simply because of the sheer boredom we all had, cops come and make us leave...we went to quick chek, another fun-packed place....mike, jerry and angelo were also there, so we just hung out for a little and then we decided to leave....chris and i were just driving around and eventually drove around totowa...we encountered mike being dropped off by angelo, and were invited to come chill...
we got inside and had some interesting conversations about girls and just society in general...
1. a relationship in high school is not as good as having as much fun as you can, and exploring the depths of your life that probably wont be exploited in the rest of your work-filled, boring, hackneyed life...the fact is that relationships are trite unless you really find someone special, and in all seriousness -the life we are living, as highschool students- doesnt really offer as large of a pool of opportunity to find that special person as the rest of life does....basically, unless you really are in love with someone, a realationship is not as worth enjoying every night with the friends that you are going to go through life with, or the friends that no matter how divided you are, you will always have the respect and the mutual bond that lasts forever....and that- that is something special, more special than the shit that is shrouded by our temporary hormonal temptations.......
2. talking behind peoples backs is fucking ridiculous...everyone does it, youd be a liar if you denied it...HOWEVER, some things can be considered much worse than others....for example, someone can totally bash another behind their back, and then when they see each other, they are totally cool about it, like nothing happened...people constantly bash mike about the way he handles situations with girls....we've all heard the bullshit, but how many of us have actually EXPERIENCED the so called "asshole" things that mike does......my guess is, well, no one...it just pisses me off to see people like mike get a bad wrap because hes enjoying himself, or people put it off as wrong for you to think about defending him, or make you feel like you have to bash someone to fit in...im not even going to lie...i havent defended mike, and even agreed when some things were said, but only out of the fear of feeling like an outsider, or like i was wrong...i totally regret ever doing it...and a few people can vouch for me being pissed at myself for even thinking about agreeing with such SHIT....anyyyyyway...some people like to single out people and make fun of them to make themselves feel greater....very rarely does someone deliberately belittle another without intentions of somehow making themselves feel better about a past problem, or to eliminate some jealousy of some sort...in other words, i guess its just another way of showing how typical society can be....singling out some of the people that really dont deserve just that, and making them feel bad, or trying to take away some of their pride/enjoyment, by downplaying some of the things they have done.....pathetic, in all estimations
3. ...these few years are for our enjoyment...we shouldnt be wasting time thinking about problems, let alone having them...times like these will never be given back, so therefore we owe it to ourselves to just let loose of all our stupid little restrictions that we have and just enjoy....i really am furious about not spending time with all my friends, or having a party, or just letting loose this summer....ideally, wed be having parties, getting wasted, and being with all of our friends....anything else is just a bonus and should happen anyway, because were teenagers in highschool and will never have the same opportunities.......its almost over god dammit, and we cant even do anything construction with our summer..
...a lot of shit has to fix itself before the summer is over in order to make me "happy"...
so tonite was especially shitty....i worked until 10, which blew, like always....then i headed over to chris's to pick him up and think of something to do...we went to PV, and to no ones suprise, we find angelo, matt timmerman, and mike enright and jerry show up later...some other people were there too, but they do not compare and do not hold any relevance to the PV parking lot regulars...some cops came to run on the track, but who gives a shit...fucking bastards....
so after sitting around in the parking lot, with no intentions of doing anything, simply because of the sheer boredom we all had, cops come and make us leave...we went to quick chek, another fun-packed place....mike, jerry and angelo were also there, so we just hung out for a little and then we decided to leave....chris and i were just driving around and eventually drove around totowa...we encountered mike being dropped off by angelo, and were invited to come chill...
we got inside and had some interesting conversations about girls and just society in general...
1. a relationship in high school is not as good as having as much fun as you can, and exploring the depths of your life that probably wont be exploited in the rest of your work-filled, boring, hackneyed life...the fact is that relationships are trite unless you really find someone special, and in all seriousness -the life we are living, as highschool students- doesnt really offer as large of a pool of opportunity to find that special person as the rest of life does....basically, unless you really are in love with someone, a realationship is not as worth enjoying every night with the friends that you are going to go through life with, or the friends that no matter how divided you are, you will always have the respect and the mutual bond that lasts forever....and that- that is something special, more special than the shit that is shrouded by our temporary hormonal temptations.......
2. talking behind peoples backs is fucking ridiculous...everyone does it, youd be a liar if you denied it...HOWEVER, some things can be considered much worse than others....for example, someone can totally bash another behind their back, and then when they see each other, they are totally cool about it, like nothing happened...people constantly bash mike about the way he handles situations with girls....we've all heard the bullshit, but how many of us have actually EXPERIENCED the so called "asshole" things that mike does......my guess is, well, no one...it just pisses me off to see people like mike get a bad wrap because hes enjoying himself, or people put it off as wrong for you to think about defending him, or make you feel like you have to bash someone to fit in...im not even going to lie...i havent defended mike, and even agreed when some things were said, but only out of the fear of feeling like an outsider, or like i was wrong...i totally regret ever doing it...and a few people can vouch for me being pissed at myself for even thinking about agreeing with such SHIT....anyyyyyway...some people like to single out people and make fun of them to make themselves feel greater....very rarely does someone deliberately belittle another without intentions of somehow making themselves feel better about a past problem, or to eliminate some jealousy of some sort...in other words, i guess its just another way of showing how typical society can be....singling out some of the people that really dont deserve just that, and making them feel bad, or trying to take away some of their pride/enjoyment, by downplaying some of the things they have done.....pathetic, in all estimations
3. ...these few years are for our enjoyment...we shouldnt be wasting time thinking about problems, let alone having them...times like these will never be given back, so therefore we owe it to ourselves to just let loose of all our stupid little restrictions that we have and just enjoy....i really am furious about not spending time with all my friends, or having a party, or just letting loose this summer....ideally, wed be having parties, getting wasted, and being with all of our friends....anything else is just a bonus and should happen anyway, because were teenagers in highschool and will never have the same opportunities.......its almost over god dammit, and we cant even do anything construction with our summer..
...a lot of shit has to fix itself before the summer is over in order to make me "happy"...