life

[gianara]

I haven't been posting here in a while. I really should combine all my journals into one.

Life has taken so many twists and turns for me. I have endured pain beyond what I thought I could handle. Someone who was once my world has done everything to shatter what I have left.

I went to chemo this afternoon. I have been going there for such a long time

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[amethystlight]

*HUGS* You weren't alone in those hopes for fixing things that once worked but became broken. I'm glad to know you now have a path that leads away from that and someone to walk it with you. I know I don't have the same pain as you, but I do know about building up mental and emotional defenses, and then trying to take them down enough to start trusting again. I also know about angels answering a call. :)

I'm thinking good thoughts for you. I hope you and Rich continue to find happiness together. :) *hugs*

[gianara]

Thank you! *hugs back*
Sometimes we close our eyes to the answers our angels give us. Looking back on my life... I think I missed a few. Something my sister said to me opened my eyes about Rich. I was so focused on the pain and failure of my marriage that I wasn't seeing what was before my eyes.

How are things going with you?
I have to sit down one day soon and catch up on journals. I've neglected LJ for a long time now!

[amethystlight]

Sometimes we close our eyes to the answers our angels give us.

*Nods* There have been times where I wasn't sure what exactly I was doing with my life, and I thought I knew the signs for directions, but then realized I might be clinging to the wrong thing. Hence, why I am where I am now. :)

How are things going with you?Started my new job here in Oklahoma the day after you replied and I've been a busy bee since then

[gianara]

I'm sorry to hear being back in NY was not good for you. We can still love our families but keep a distance for sanity's sake

[amethystlight]

The recent tornadoes have been north of us so far. *knocks on wood* Still, we've already had our share of nearby touchdowns, but we've got our evacuation plan worked out and our shelter is right under the stairs in our garage (I though the apartment had a kooky design, with all the rooms on the second floor over our garage and the neighbor's, but having an indoor shelter more than makes up for that). We're in Oklahoma City, a teensy bit north of the city itself, and west of Tulsa.

I'd be happy to see you if you happen to come this way. :)

I'm glad to hear you are doing well. Changing situations in our lives for the better takes guts. :)Thank you. Yeah, trying to address the moving company choice was an adventure in itself. There were many times where I almost backed out, thinking of the type of security and opportunities I had in NY. My eventual college decision is up in the air here, but it's something I'll figure out later. The fact that I don't have a degree didn't phase anyone at my job, so I'm relieved and hopeful

[gianara]

I was just thinking about it and it's been 9 years since I saw you! Time flys. Ive been back to Chevy's a few times since and always think about that dinner :)

(I wish I could getthat "loss of appetite" effect rather than "weight gain" for once. :P )

yeah... I have the same problem. I never get the loss of appetite. I look nothing like I did nine years ago. :p

[amethystlight]

Time flies indeed...dang. When I think about stuff like Hond 'Con '99, it feels like it wasn't so long ago, then I remember that this year marks ten years since I was out of high school. :P ...I always have my photo album of HoND stuff within easy reach. :)

If you don't happen to come OKC way, the roomies and I are setting our sights on accompanying Domon's parents on (what has turned out to be) their annual vacation to Disneyworld. They invited Domon's brother along this year so I really hope everything works out so that we can do it! =D

If oly it weren't so difficult to loose that gained weight, too. I'm trying to eat healthier but my usual nemesis, exercise, is of course the necessary one to get the weight off. :P Another thing I like about my new job: I'm constantly walking around. Hopefully a few months of this will help. Then at home I need to kick my own butt to do some sit ups. :P