Depressed

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I have come to the conclusion that I am depressed today. I don't know why, just am. I do take an anti-depressant, but lately it hasn't been working. Part of it might be that fact that I'm scrolling through my f-list and so many people are celebrating Pride, and I well, just can't. I can't afford to go anywhere, and frankly right now I've nothing to be prideful about. I'm 34, but I don't have a job, don't have money, am HIV-positive and live with my grandmother nearly 50 miles from the nearest "moderately"-sized city. I feel so "alone". Makes me remember a poem I wrote so many years ago, back when I was in high school.

Flower of Luck

Flower of luck
lost all its magic.
Flower of love
lost all its charm.
Flower of life
lost all its petals.
Fallen 'way,
thrown 'way,
Gone.

© 1991 Gregory R. Mullins