Crappy Christmas
I lost my grandmother yesterday on Christmas. The rock of my life is gone. I'm lost and I don't know what to do. I'm numb and I'm worried. I don't know how I'm going to pay my bills. . .I don't even know where I'm going to be living anymore. I don't want to stay in SC, but I have to. Unless I can find a state without a waiting list for ADAP I've got to stay in SC where I'm at least able to still receive my antivirals. Without those. . .without those I might as well be next to follow. Where am I going to live? How am I going to live? I lost my grandmother yesterday on Christmas. . .the rock of my life is gone. . .it's been a crappy Christmas and I can't stop crying.