a whisper....
so its only been three days into school and im already over it. well its good to have structure and a schedule back, but im just soooo tired. and sore. im glad to be back in the dance studio. i cant wait to sit down this weekend and CLEAN the house and just get everything organized. i have a checklist of mini life organizing goals im tryin to accomplish this weekend. sunday will be my sleeping in and cleaning and organizing day....
things with anthony are going really really really good. im still terrified of the whole situation. as of the last two days ive been noticing its easier and easier to say how i feel and just let myself put my guard down a lil bit. he is still askin me to be his girlfriend....and as much as i tell myself "next time he asks im sayin yes..." when he asks its like i freeze up. i literally cant speak and i just kind of sit there and blink or change the subject or whatever. i feel terrible. i wish i could just be like YES YES YES YES YES YES but i just feel like as much as i want that....i want to know him a lil better. for the last 6 weeks we have been hanging out daily and im really getting to know him....but there is still so much that we dont know about each other. as much as i want to rush things....i cant. ive done that way too much. and i want to make sure that the feelings i find myself feeling, those ones that make my stomach drop and heart skip a beat when i think of him...i want to make sure those are real. real....real...real... i need for my life to be as stress free as possible these next two semesters, he is making it really easy for that to happen so far....i think, if its ok with daisy, i may bring him to vegas with me. i cant imagine anyone else id rather be there with visiting my best friend. daisy is like a sister to me and i would love for her to meet him.
well i have to go get changed for african! i love that class, by the time janets done with us im sweating like a pig and ten pounds lighter. last fall when i took this class i lost like ten pounds in the two and a half months of taking it. there are auditions today...i do the show every year...i dont know if im going to this year...i think i may regrete it though if i dont....well im out like a light....
things with anthony are going really really really good. im still terrified of the whole situation. as of the last two days ive been noticing its easier and easier to say how i feel and just let myself put my guard down a lil bit. he is still askin me to be his girlfriend....and as much as i tell myself "next time he asks im sayin yes..." when he asks its like i freeze up. i literally cant speak and i just kind of sit there and blink or change the subject or whatever. i feel terrible. i wish i could just be like YES YES YES YES YES YES but i just feel like as much as i want that....i want to know him a lil better. for the last 6 weeks we have been hanging out daily and im really getting to know him....but there is still so much that we dont know about each other. as much as i want to rush things....i cant. ive done that way too much. and i want to make sure that the feelings i find myself feeling, those ones that make my stomach drop and heart skip a beat when i think of him...i want to make sure those are real. real....real...real... i need for my life to be as stress free as possible these next two semesters, he is making it really easy for that to happen so far....i think, if its ok with daisy, i may bring him to vegas with me. i cant imagine anyone else id rather be there with visiting my best friend. daisy is like a sister to me and i would love for her to meet him.
well i have to go get changed for african! i love that class, by the time janets done with us im sweating like a pig and ten pounds lighter. last fall when i took this class i lost like ten pounds in the two and a half months of taking it. there are auditions today...i do the show every year...i dont know if im going to this year...i think i may regrete it though if i dont....well im out like a light....