pots n pans
katie and i made dinner last night. it was sooooooo good. we had drinks, homemade cheesy artichoke dip, tortellini, gnocchi with homemade sauce, five cheese garlic bread, AND CHEESECAKE!!!!!!!!katie is an amazing cook<3 it was delicious and the company wasnt too shabby either. obviously i am not ready for a relationship but its nice to be hanging out with john. he gets me. we have alot of fun together. and of course hes gorgeous to boot!!!! thats always a plus. i get butterflies....
i feel extremely fat lately. all ive been doing since ive been home is eating and drinking. ive gained seven pounds since ive been home. thats alot. i was actually liking the way i was starting to look too. thats what bums me out. i HATE how i look allllll the time. i hate to be that girl that bitches seriously about how she looks, but i am right now. i cant help it. ive been so up and down with my moods lately that its hard to get myself to just get the fuck up and go running or even walking. im used to walking everywhere. i come home and now i have to drive everywhere or its just a short walk anywhere in the neighborhood... i just need motivation to suck it up and just get off my lazy fuckin ass and move.
at least the last week has been pretty stable. ive been feeling a little bit sick here and there, but i think it could possibly be from the weeks worth of binge drinking i just did (ouch). i did a very unexpected thing the other day but it was nice to meet you...it just reaffirms that hes in amazing hands. hope he wasnt too mad about that by the way....
i feel extremely fat lately. all ive been doing since ive been home is eating and drinking. ive gained seven pounds since ive been home. thats alot. i was actually liking the way i was starting to look too. thats what bums me out. i HATE how i look allllll the time. i hate to be that girl that bitches seriously about how she looks, but i am right now. i cant help it. ive been so up and down with my moods lately that its hard to get myself to just get the fuck up and go running or even walking. im used to walking everywhere. i come home and now i have to drive everywhere or its just a short walk anywhere in the neighborhood... i just need motivation to suck it up and just get off my lazy fuckin ass and move.
at least the last week has been pretty stable. ive been feeling a little bit sick here and there, but i think it could possibly be from the weeks worth of binge drinking i just did (ouch). i did a very unexpected thing the other day but it was nice to meet you...it just reaffirms that hes in amazing hands. hope he wasnt too mad about that by the way....