Do I have friends? I would say no, but I know I do. I don’t know if they care or not. No one ever calls me, my phone is silent, no IM’s ever sent my way. I’m trying to be less hard on myself, stop putting myself down. But I’m so used to it, I’m finding it hard not to. I don’t know if I’ve earned the right to have self esteem, or confidence. I’m ( Read more... )

I’m not sleeping well. I don’t know why. Today I’m going to go see my friends band play. Normally, I don’t even bother going. I have to hang out with people I don’t know, and they’re usually drug addicts from downtown. I don’t like my friends band anyways. They’re not so great. But, they have a lot of fun, and good times, so who am I to rain on ( Read more... )

Me and Lisa talked last night. She told me everything. Although it hurt then, it felt better. Everything is washed away now. I have a clean slate. I realize now I wouldn’t want someone with so much extra baggage. I wouldn’t know how to handle it. I’ve learned one thing from this, I love anyone that gives me a little hope, and that long distance ( Read more... )

Normally I would say same shit , different day. But today felt different. I don’t know why. I have no one anymore, no one to talk to. Except this journal that’s online and anyone can read, but seems that very few, or no one does. I’ve decided to go to film school. Although I’m certain it will lead nowhere in my life, I can hope. Dreams are what ( Read more... )

Ain't Love Grand- Atreyu ( Read more... )

I didn’t fall asleep last night until five o’clock. I can’t stop thinking about her. I don’t know if I miss her, or want to rip her throat out for what she did to me. I’ve never seen anyone turncoat so quickly. I’ve been crying, a lot. I never cry. I’m passed angry, I’ve punched the wall and myself enough. My knuckles are swollen. I keep blaming ( Read more... )

My mommy rented The Punisher. So, I watched it. Pretty much got what I was expecting. A stereotypical brainless action movie. I don’t like comics either so it didn’t help. It wasn’t horrible. But it wasn’t my thing. At one point, he enters the a room filled with many men armed with a cross bow. Now, I’m not a huge fan of guns, but, you think he ( Read more... )

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