it's been quite a while
okay so you know that feeling when you think someone hates you and you don't understand why, and you think about it constantly, and it makes you sad and angry. but then at the right time they talk to you and everything in life seems better. it's like a weight has been lifted. this keeps happening to me, like i think he hates me and then he'll talk to me and it just keeps cycling. i thought i had this all figured out but i'll see how things go. hopefully things will be better when he's home. gosh i was soo angry today saying to myself i wasn't gonna send him anything for his birthday, but now i'm really excited. i guess it's right.
i can really see the effects thinking too much has on others. my grandpa is loosing it cuz he has nobody to talk to a lot of the time, so he just thinks about things and then my mom freaks when he keeps trying to help, but he just is lonely. i feel for him. i wish i could drive, then i'd go visit him more.
mmm i want to go back to shrine mont. that weekend was just so fun and peaceful and not worrysome. it's really hard to explain, it's more something you have to experience.
ohh i have a new cousin, well new as in we just learned about him. he's uncle al's child and is 3 and a half. he's half thai half white. he's the cutest little thing and he speaks french and some thai. we're having dinner with him next wednesday, i'm soo excited!
i can really see the effects thinking too much has on others. my grandpa is loosing it cuz he has nobody to talk to a lot of the time, so he just thinks about things and then my mom freaks when he keeps trying to help, but he just is lonely. i feel for him. i wish i could drive, then i'd go visit him more.
mmm i want to go back to shrine mont. that weekend was just so fun and peaceful and not worrysome. it's really hard to explain, it's more something you have to experience.
ohh i have a new cousin, well new as in we just learned about him. he's uncle al's child and is 3 and a half. he's half thai half white. he's the cutest little thing and he speaks french and some thai. we're having dinner with him next wednesday, i'm soo excited!