can't sleep
I had it so together, and now I feel like I'm slipping, even though I am happy. My ability to sleep for longer than an hour at a time is inversly correlated to my anxiety level. And judging by my lack of sleep, and the existence of a well timed cold sore, my anxiety level has broken the measure. Even good things make me anxious...I feel like a freak. I can't just be...I have to work so hard to be normal. I'm not better without the anxiety, just easier. Let it be resolved that I should go work out tomorrow and sweat it out so I can spend time with my peeps and hopefully be too relaxed (tired) to be a freak.
I finally took my math test, and I think it went well. I continue my denial of the fact that I have yet to graduate. As well as denial of the fact that the woman I am replacing at work is leaving in one week and 2 days...I can't do this! Yes I can. But she is as I told a friend earlier, "good people".
In other news, System of A Down is coming to Columbus, not to mention...NIN!!!!! Oh my freaking non-existant god! September 25th is my day...anything could happen. the moon could shatter, the oceans could dry up and then fill again with the accelerated melting of glaciers, brought about by the explosion of the sun...but I will be at Nationwide Arena listening to the most riveting and dynamic voice known to the genre, and really to the global activist scene... :-) AS for NIN, Trent Reznor is just the hottest artist...that will be a aural sexual orgy.
Did I mention my libido is in over drive? Everything has been turning me on lately...not just noticing and appreciating, but like OM,JDMN. Thats Oh My, Just Do Me Now! Even though it is frustrating, at the same time I am enjoying it...so, rock on.
it is 1 in the morning and i am awake...
I finally took my math test, and I think it went well. I continue my denial of the fact that I have yet to graduate. As well as denial of the fact that the woman I am replacing at work is leaving in one week and 2 days...I can't do this! Yes I can. But she is as I told a friend earlier, "good people".
In other news, System of A Down is coming to Columbus, not to mention...NIN!!!!! Oh my freaking non-existant god! September 25th is my day...anything could happen. the moon could shatter, the oceans could dry up and then fill again with the accelerated melting of glaciers, brought about by the explosion of the sun...but I will be at Nationwide Arena listening to the most riveting and dynamic voice known to the genre, and really to the global activist scene... :-) AS for NIN, Trent Reznor is just the hottest artist...that will be a aural sexual orgy.
Did I mention my libido is in over drive? Everything has been turning me on lately...not just noticing and appreciating, but like OM,JDMN. Thats Oh My, Just Do Me Now! Even though it is frustrating, at the same time I am enjoying it...so, rock on.
it is 1 in the morning and i am awake...