That's it...
I have had it. I hate SFF. I hate how it makes people act. I hate what it does to friendships and how it has been run. There were a few of us who were very unsure about trying to run the group, but who took a shot at trying to make it different and hopefully with some help, better. But no, the people who had already been running it didn't want to be part of anything that didn't match their previous notions and then when no one came to help when they knew we had low membership, things crumbled. And when after everyone else had quit, the old people came back to "save" the group, or to run things the same way they had been, but that hadn't worked. I stayed on, with many doubts, but tried to contribute in ways that I thought had potential. I maintained that they way things had been run in the past is not how they should be. I made suggestions. They all got shot down. The people running it now made it very clear that the old way or the highway. I faded out. I should have stood up and quit instead of just fading. And they are still floundering. And still blaming our failed attempt for the groups failing to succeed. As if it wasn't failing long before we got to it. And they are feeling righteous because we aren't still trying to help after being made to feel bad. I fucked up. I should never have gotten involved in the group. I should never have taken any responsibility on when I can't follow through with things that don't mean anything to me. AS for how it makes people act, I finally felt i needed to rage about this subject, when my phone number was handed out to a complete stranger so I could be a bullseye for the frustration they are having. Yeah, I should have done the fucking audit...but if they think that is the only thing that has them screwed for the next year, they are fooling themselves. I am so pissed. The freethought movement can go to hell...who needs nonprogressive freethinkers? Not I. I don't need a movement that still can't question gender roles. I watched a father teach his son how to serve a volleyball, while telling his daughter of the same age to just throw it. And when I tried to show her how, no one thought I should. Just let her throw it. Maybe freethinkers should start questioning more than just the existence of god and look at how they are socialized and streamlined in other ways. maybe they should question why it is that females are treated like invalids who can't learn anything when they tell little girls to just do what's easy instead of giving them the opportunity to struggle and achieve.
RRRRRRAge!!!!!!!
RRRRRRAge!!!!!!!