2007 on Final Approach
Instead of going on about how my trip to Michigan, and the holidays went...Ill just say, it ended with me leaving 10 days early. I spent a good majority of Christmas Day at 37,000 ft, and honestly...I think leaving was the best thing I could have done.
What depresses me about all of it, is the amount of people I didnt even get to see...and what friends i did get to see - I didnt get to hang out with for long enough.
The work ahead of me is really terrifying, and Im not even sure how Im going to make it. Due to new financial situations (Ha)...Ill be paying my own rent, and everything else. The amount of money i need, far surpasses what I currently make. Another Job? ... 10 new jobs? lol I really dont know. For some reason, however unrealistic, I still feel like everything is fine...that somehow the money will come, as it always has.
Im excited to leave 2007 behind..
The thing Im trying to remember is that change is inevitable..and to try and embrace it. Maybe this is exactly what I need...a change like this to make things better. You have to get the old, even when its comfortable, out of the way...if you want to make room for something better.
Even though my plans for New Years ended up being 3000 miles different than what I thought they would be..Im pretty excited for tonight. A Small bar in LA, with some of my favourite people in all of the city.
Honestly, in some weird way...Im feeling really lucky. When shit comes crashing down, it sort of forces you to look at what you do have...what matters, and whats good. In that, ive found a lot of comfort, and things to be thankful for.
So tonight...Im thankful for you. No matter how crazy everything feels, and how hopeless the situation seems to be. I always have my friends...who arent friends at all - but family.
I read this earlier tonight and just sort of laughed...maybe understanding it a little more than what I cared to remember
"So, I decided to find another place to go and find out why people go there. Unfortunately, there arent a lot of places like that. I dont know how much longer I can keep going without a friend. I used to be able to do it very easily, but that was before i knew what having a friend was like. its much easier not to know things sometimes. And to have French fries with your mom be enough."
This, the last journal of 2007, with no looking back... and no regrets
All my love
What depresses me about all of it, is the amount of people I didnt even get to see...and what friends i did get to see - I didnt get to hang out with for long enough.
The work ahead of me is really terrifying, and Im not even sure how Im going to make it. Due to new financial situations (Ha)...Ill be paying my own rent, and everything else. The amount of money i need, far surpasses what I currently make. Another Job? ... 10 new jobs? lol I really dont know. For some reason, however unrealistic, I still feel like everything is fine...that somehow the money will come, as it always has.
Im excited to leave 2007 behind..
The thing Im trying to remember is that change is inevitable..and to try and embrace it. Maybe this is exactly what I need...a change like this to make things better. You have to get the old, even when its comfortable, out of the way...if you want to make room for something better.
Even though my plans for New Years ended up being 3000 miles different than what I thought they would be..Im pretty excited for tonight. A Small bar in LA, with some of my favourite people in all of the city.
Honestly, in some weird way...Im feeling really lucky. When shit comes crashing down, it sort of forces you to look at what you do have...what matters, and whats good. In that, ive found a lot of comfort, and things to be thankful for.
So tonight...Im thankful for you. No matter how crazy everything feels, and how hopeless the situation seems to be. I always have my friends...who arent friends at all - but family.
I read this earlier tonight and just sort of laughed...maybe understanding it a little more than what I cared to remember
"So, I decided to find another place to go and find out why people go there. Unfortunately, there arent a lot of places like that. I dont know how much longer I can keep going without a friend. I used to be able to do it very easily, but that was before i knew what having a friend was like. its much easier not to know things sometimes. And to have French fries with your mom be enough."
This, the last journal of 2007, with no looking back... and no regrets
All my love